Oh, so you want the short version?
Well it started when I was 6 and my father sexually abused me.
But I coun't myself lucky, because at least it was only 1 time,
and not for 3 years like my sister,
or for 7 years like my other sister.
Then when I was 14 my mum found out asked me
"Would you like him to stay, or leave?"
I said he should leave.
And it's been since then my brother had no father.
He was only 6 at the time.
We're all just hoping he turns out ok with the lack of a male role model.
He deserves a dad.
My dad just doesn't deserve him.
Then when I was 15 I was kicked out of home.
I lived on my friends lounge's and even park benches.
I'd taken up smoking by then.
I dropped out of school soon after.
Then I met a boy and spent about 8 months with him,
when I decided we should break up,
he pushed me, punched me and spat in my face.
I did drugs and drank alcohol for almost 2 years straight.
I hardly spoke to my mum once.
I partied all the time.
The drugs made me paranoid, so I stopped speaking to all my friends.
I made a whole group of new friends, and partied with them instead.
I heard cutting takes away the pain,
so I tried it, and there's now a very large scar on my left wrist.
But the pain never left.
I slept around, and led boys on.
I'm pretty, and I felt that's all I really had.
Just after I turned 17 I met a guy, he didn't do drugs.
We chatted for a while, just over Facebook.
He asked to meet up with me constantly, but I always declined.
I thought he was just going to love me and leave me,
Like so many others.
I eventually said yes, and we hung out.
He asked me out, and we dated for 2 days before he broke it off.
I thought that was it, and I was hurting, but ready to move on.
But he never left me alone, and the next week asked me out again.
Two and a half years later.
We're engaged.
Almost at our 3 year anniversary.
I don't party like crazy anymore.
I've given up smoking and drugs.
I work 2 jobs.
I'm going to an adult school and I'm doing my final year this year.
And I have every intention to go to university once I'm done.
Yes, that is the short version.
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