Fighting with him again and I'm just wondering why this is happening so often. I know I'm stubborn sometimes and he is too but we never used to fight like this. Why is it so hard to make plans to see each other? Why does it always have to be a fight? I shouldn't have to fight to see you, and you shouldn't get mad at me for not knowing how to see you when i don't have gas or money and you do... I love you so much and I feel like we've fought every day this new year. I'm just venting but holy god I cannot deal with this sometimes. Stop answering the phone so mad at me sometimes. I'm sorry i woke you up but there's no need to be angry with me. I just want to spend time with you but now I can't and it sucks so bad.
BOY SURVEY What color is his hair?: Dark brown (: Cute smile: The cutest c: Braces: Nope Glasses: No Abs: Yep (: It's cute :P Height: 6'3" How did you meet him: We met up and smoked at the reservoir (we have mutual friends) How long have you known him: 5 months Does he play any sports: He used to Can he play the guitar: not sure lol What about any other music instrument: No Do you guys ever text: Sometimes, when we're not together or on the phone Describe something he would wear on a typical day: Vans, jeans, and a t-shirt What's your favorite thing you've seen him wear: Ooh, he looks pretty hot in that black wife beater (; Least favorite thing: hmm... Can't think of anything I don't like Do your friends know that you like him: Duuhhh Do your parents know him?: Of course :) Do you think they would like him if you were dating him: We are dating:) mom loves him and my dad is pretty fond of him as well :) Do you know him properly?: Of course Have you met his parents: yep :) What would you do if he saw your witty: he already has kind of (:
My goal is to find someone in life who will have a love for me as deep and unconditional as the love I feel for them. I need and I crave consistency. I just want to love, and love, and love... and be loved in return. I long for affection, and I believe that the moment when I am truly content is when I find this type of love. I am complete. I am whole. I just long to be a part of someone's success and their joy and their dreams and... their life. I long to be loved and I find myself, more often than not, yearning for something that hasn't even existed yet— something that is so far from my reach. –Midnight Thoughts
WITTY SURVEY: Cross Off the Things You Have Done Graduated high school Kissed Someone Smoked a cigarette Got so drunk you passed out Rode in a police car for something you didn't do Rode every ride at an amusement park Collected something really stupid Gone to a rock concert Help someone Gone fishing Watched four movies in one night Gone long periods of time without sleep Lied to someone Snorted cocaine Failed a class Dealt drugs Been in a car accident Been in a tornado Done hard drugs Watched someone die Been at a funeral Burned yourself Ran a marathon Cried yourself to sleep Spent over $200 in one day Flown on a plane Cheated on someone Been cheated on Written a 10 page letter Gone skiing Been sailing Cut yourself on accident Had a best friend Lost someone you loved Shoplifted something Been to jail Dangerously close to being in jail Skipped school Skipped class Had detention Got in trouble for something you didn't do Stolen books from the library Gone to a different country Dropped out of school Been in a mental hospital Been treated in a mental hospital Watched the “Harry Potter” movies Had an online diary Fired a gun Had a yard sale Had a lemonade stand Actually made money at a lemonade stand Been in a school play Been fired from a job Taken a lie detector test Swam with dolphins Gone to sea world Voted for someone on a reality TV show Written poetry Read more than 20 books a year Written a 30 page essay Gone to Europe Loved someone you shouldn't have Befriended someone you shouldn't have Used a coloring book over age 12 Had surgery Had stitches Taken a taxi Seen the Washington Monument Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once Overdosed Had a drug or alcohol problem Relative to someone who had a serious alcohol/drug problem Been in a fist fight Suffered any form of abuse Gone surfing in California Had a hamster Pet a wild animal Used a credit card Did “spirit day” at school Dyed your hair Got a tattoo Had something pierced Got straight As Been on the honor roll Known someone with HIV or AIDS
5 Truths Quiz 1. Last beverage= Water 2. Last Phone call= Lea 3. Last Text Message= "shiiit" 4. Last Song You Listened To= Runnin'- MGK 5. Last time I cryed= Yesterday? I think 6. Dated Somone Twice= Yep 7. Been Cheated On= Yes.. 8. Lost Someone Special= Too many. 9. Kissed Somone and Regreted It= Yep 10. Been Depressed= Uh-Huh. 11. Height= 5'6" FIRST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS 12. Red 13. Black 14. Silver THIS YEAR HAVE YOU 15. Made a New Best Friend= Nope. Eff 'em all. 16. Fallen In Love= Nope--Been in love for 2 years. 17. Slept With Someone New= Nope. 18. Met Someone Who Changed You= Nooo 19. Found out who you true friends are= Most definitely. 20. Found out someone was talking about you= When are they not?! 21. Kissed anyone on my friends list= Umm, yea 22. How many people on your friends list do you actually see= Lots... too many. RANDOM QUESTIONS. 23. How many kids do you want to have= Umm... None? Maybe 1. 24. Do you have any pets= Yep, three dogs. 25. Do you want to change your name= Nah 26. What did you do for your last birthday= Nothing. 27. What time did you wake up today= 8:00 a.m. 28. What were you doing at midnight lastnight= Sleeping 29. Name something you can not wait for= Seeing Mark!! Best friend-cousin :D haah 30. Last time you saw your mother= Today 31. What is one thing you wish you could change about youself= Umm, my chicken legs? Hehe >:( 32. What are you listening to right now= When I'm Gone- Wiz Khalifa 33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom= Yep, old boss. 34. Whats getting on your nerves right now= My itchy legs D: 35. Most visted webpage= Probably Witty. 36. Whats your Name= Erica 37. Nicknames?= Nope 38. Relationship Status= Eh, physically-single. Emotionally-taken 39. Male/Female= Female 40. Primary school= yep 41. Middle school= yep 42. College=nope 43. Hair colour= Right now, red. Natural, blonde. 44. Long or short= long 45. Perfume= Pure Seduction ;3 46. Do you have a crush on someone= Yah Yaaahh ;) 47. What do you like bout yourself= Hmm, I'm not sure. 48. Piercings= Ooo:) Bellybutton, tongue, lip, and lots in my ears ;3 49. Tattoos= Tummy and wrist ;3 50. Righty or Lefty= Righty 51. First Surgery= Ears 52. First Piercing= Bellybutton(not counting my ears when I was a baby) 53. First best friend= ...Um? Oooh! Rio. 54. First sport you joined= None o.O 55.First Vacation= Cali babaaayyy :) 56. Eating= Nothin' 57. Drinking= That H20 n*gga! :) 58.I'm about to= Uhh, I dunno .-. 59. Listening to= TURN DOWN FOR WHAAAT! hehe ;3 60. Waiting for= Nothing! 61. Want Kids= Uh, Maybe. 62. Want to get married= For sure, when the right one comes. Only once. 63. Career = Not sure yet. WHICH IS BETTER 64. Lips or Eyes= Ooh, tough one. I think eyes :) 65. Hugs or Kisses= Ooh, I looove kisses :) 66. Shorter or Taller= Taller <3 67. Older or younger= Older... 69. Smart or good face= Both? Hehe 70. Sensitive or loud= Looouuudd (don't do sensitive) 71. Hook - up or relationship= Depends with who ;) haha, just playin'. Relationship fo' sho' 72. Truble maker or Hesitant= Mmm, those trouble makers hehe HAVE YOU EVER 73. Kissed a stranger= Yep 74. Drank hard liquor= Mmmhmm 75. Lost glasses or Contacts= Yesss 76. "IT" on first date= Um, no? Kinda. 77. Broken someones heart= Don't think so. 78. Had your own heart broken= 'Course. 79. Been Arrested= Haha, close. 80. Turned someone down= Ya 81. Cried when someone had died= Of course. 82. Fallen for a friend= Yep DO YOU BELIEVE IN. 83. Yourself= Sure 84. Love at first sight= Maybe. Probably not though 85. Heaven= No. 86. Santa= Haha! Hell yeah! (not really) 87. Kiss on First date= Sure 88. Angels= Nope. ANSWER TRUTHFULLY 89. Had more than one Girlfriend/ Boyfriend at a time= Nope. 90. Did you sing today= Yeess :3 91. Ever cheated on somone= NOPE 92. If you could go back in time how far would you go= Back to August 2013 93. If you could pick one day to relive what would it be= Any day from Aug. 2013 to Oct. 2013 94. Do you have one certian regret that you wish you could change= Plenty. Can't just choose one 95. Did you like this survey= Sure
MUSIC QUIZ (Honestly half of these were either so accurate or so inaccurate that I was laughing hysterically the whole time) Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, ETC.) and put it on shuffle. For every question, type the song that's playing. Click the next button for a new song when you get to the next question. NO LYING WE DON'T JUDGE! WE'VE ALL HAD OUR MUSIC SINCE WE WERE 6 ITS ALL GOOD! Opening Credits: Hanging On- Ellie Goulding Waking Up: Up Against (Blackout)-Taking Back Sunday First Day of School: Do What You Do- Cute Is What We Aim For Falling in Love: Ribs- Lorde Fight Song: Divine Intervention- Taking Back Sunday Breaking Up: D&G- Machine Gun Kelly Studying/Working: I'm Not Alright- Shinedown Life: Hold On, We're Going Home- Drake Mental Breakdown: Home Soon- Machine Gun Kelly Sunny Day: Bold as Love- John Mayer Rainy Day: I'm Gonna Find Another You- John Mayer Party/Dance Music: Motivation- Sum 41 (wtf) Sleeping/Dreaming: How Long Will I Love You- Ellie Goulding Nightmares: La La La ( the Floating Song)- Machine Gun Kelly Flashback: Tessellate- Ellie Goulding Wedding: Walking Disaster- Sum 41 Birth of a child: MakeDamnSure- Taking Back Sunday Final Battle: The Ballad Of Sal Villanueva- Taking Back Sunday Death Scene: Catholic Knees- Taking Back Sunday Funeral Song: Raise The Flag- Machine Gun Kelly End Credits: Number Five With A Bullet- Taking Back Sunday
Sometimes, I get jealous... somewhat jealous of her. Because you went back to her so many times... & you never have come back to me. But at the same time, I'm grateful. Grateful because I know that if you ever came back to me, you would leave again. And I can't stand to lose you. The first time was hard enough. I couldn't handle losing you, not again. Lord knows, the next time, I wouldn't make it through it. But that also hurts. I just want you forever. And I find myself so confused. I love you, but I want to love HIM. And I'm messing things up with him because of this. This confusion. I don't want to hurt anymore, I just want to be with him. Why can't you just leave me alone? :/
A- Available: Yess-- kinda B- Birthday: April 29th C- Crushing On: Someone c: D- Drink you last had: Tazo Giant Peach Tea E- Easiest person to talk to: Dillon F- Favorite song: Halo- MGK G- Grossest memory: Cutting my pinky to the bone (yuck) H- Hometown: A tiny mountain town <3 I- In love with: Someone it's never gonna work with J- Jealous of: Not really anybody, what's to be jealous of? K- Killed someone: with kindness :D L- Longest friendship: 16..years? M- Middle Name: Paige N- Number of siblings: (counting step siblings) 7 O- One wish: My happy ending P- Person who called you last: David Q- Question you're always asked: Are you okay? R- Reason to smile: There's always something to smile about :) S- Song you last sang: Confidence- Teddy Geiger T- Time you woke up: 11:00 (oops) U- Underwear color: Whoa that's a little odd... V- Violent moment you had: Chasing my brother with a screw driver W- Worst habit: Biting the skin on my fingers X- X-rays you had: Wrist, toes, chest, head Y- Your last text: to Dillon: Love you, bud. Z- Zodiac sign: Taurus
So, I need your opinions on the whole "friends with benefits" thing. It seems to be going good for me, but... it's with my ex (who i was totally in love with). No feelings are coming back or anything. We're just friends and we hang out and have meaningless s3x. Is that bad?
Okay, I don't even care if this quote is pretty or not. Real talk: Machine Gun Kelly is the most inspirational person in my life. His music always seems to make me happy. Whether I'm listening to songs like Half Naked and Almost Famous that are upbeat and fun, or songs such as Home Soon that are inspirational and that I can relate to. Kells inspires me to do something with my life. He taught me that it doesn't matter if you don't have sh*t right now. Go out there and chase your dreams. If you work hard, you can achieve it all. You can do absolutely ANYTHING that you set your mind to. And he is living proof.He was homeless at one point. And now what? HE'S A F*CKING LEGEND. Look at that. What an amazing person. Also, another thing I really like about his music is that some of it is more, like... money, wh*res, etc. etc. BUT many songs are just super fun, upbeat, feelgood songs. And ...they're all REAL. He is.... just an amazing man. If you are EVER feeling down or think there's nowhere to turn, just give MGK a chance. Listen to some of his songs. He's been through a lot of what all of us have gone through. And he made it. He's still here. And he'll convince you that it can be you one day. You can be just as successful and inspirational as him someday. Just DON'T GIVE UP.
Okay, I'm sure nobody cares, but I need to vent, and maybe could get some advice? It's been four months since we broke up... We were together for two years. I have been talking to this guy that is pretty attractive, and makes me feel happy. I think I like him, but.. I just don't know how to tell anymore. Anyway, I'm scared. I don't know how to have a normal relationship. I dont know what it's like to be with someone and not live with them or sleep with them. My ex boyfriend was my oly serious relationship, and it all moved so fast. I'm not quite sure what to do. Do you think it's time to move on yet? I just feel like.... right now, if I was with this new guy and my ex wanted me back, and promised me forever and all that fairytale BS, I would go back in a heartbeat... What do I do? :(