theawkwardauthor
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1 decade ago
OH MY GOD YOU GOT MY TOP LEFT HAND CORNER TO SAY "YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL." YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY THAT MADE ME :D :D :D sorry about all the caps lock, but seriously. you. are. amazing. reply
theawkwardauthor
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1 decade ago
I am so sorry Nathan. I can't believe that you're actually gone. Beyond that, though, I can't believe that I never actually talked to you and tried to help you get better. I wish I had thought to do something while you were still here, but I guess I'm the person that proves the rule that people only care when you're dead. :( I am so so so sorry. We love you. <3 R. I. P., you amazing person. I hope you're okay. reply
theawkwardauthor
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1 decade ago
DO YOU HEAR THE PEOPLE SING!! yayy somebody else knows les miserables :) reply
theawkwardauthor
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1 decade ago
Haha, good to know that there are other Les Mis fangirls out there! xD ENJOLRAS FOREVER! reply
theawkwardauthor
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1 decade ago
I know what you're going through—I understand that feeling of being lost that you're talking about. And it really sucks when you're worrying that you're overreacting. Honestly, the best thing for you to do right now is get help from somebody who you trust. You don't have to tell them everything that you've been going through. All that you have to do is go up to somebody you really trust, like a friend or a parent or even some online counselor, and tell them everything you've just told me. I know that it's totally stupid for me to be giving advice to you, since I'm too much of a coward to ask for help, but . . . maybe you could do it? And if you don't want to do it or if you don't think you really need help just yet, come and complain to me. Hope this helped (sorry if it didn't). <3 :) reply
WantingTheEnd
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1 decade ago
I know what you mean, you're like me...you can help others with their problems and give them advice, but you struggle to help yourself. You see i don't know what to do...all of the things i'm feeling and told my friend about, she said i need to get help, she's trying to make me go to the doctors or base51 for counselling...she looked them up and apparently they are all signs of depression, i didn't believe her so i went on yahooanswers and wrote down all of the things that have been happening like loss of appetite and lack of sleep and generally feeling low for no reason and everyone that replied said that it sounds like depression and they think i should go to the doctors and ask to be put on medication to help with it. The thought of that terrifies me...it all sounds rather...extreme...i feel like if i go the doctor will just judge me and say there's nothing wrong and then i'll feel even worse, like i'm a complete liar. I'm sorry for venting to you, you probably have your own problems to worry about...x reply
theawkwardauthor
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1 decade ago
YOU'RE BACK!!!! <3 <3 <3 I love you, gorgeous!! reply
theawkwardauthor
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1 decade ago
Complain about anything you need to, I can delete your comments after reading them if it's anything too personal, just know that you can talk to me about anything and I'll understand. (Sorry that this sounds really cheesy.) reply
WantingTheEnd
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1 decade ago
Okay thanks. Well i don't really know what's wrong if that makes any sense at all, just feel like i'm lost in a way, like nothing makes any sense to me anymore. Some days i'll be there like ''oh it's not that bad i think i can handle what tomorrow brings'' and other days i jjust don't see the point in being here anymore. Although my friend listens to me occasionally, she doesn't really help me out. But then again how is someone supposed to help me when i do not know what the problem is? I told my friend last night that on Tuesday i tried to overdose and i self-harmed and she's suggesting that i go to counselling or to the doctors to get some meds because she's worried. Apparently. I'm scared that she thinks i'm just attention seeking though because she's been put on anti-anxiety meds, but it's not that at all, i used to go to camhs following two overdoses and i got discharged in december, i was alright until the end of christmas and i've gone back to my old ways of not wanting to be near anyone, not wanting to go out, hating myself, hurting myself, but it feels different this time. Last time i had actual problems that were making my life difficult, but now there are none, it's all in my head and that's another reason i don't want to talk to someone professional or get meds, because it's all just in my head and i don't understand it. I can honestly say that i do not know what to do. Help? SO SORRY THAT WAS SO LONG. reply
theawkwardauthor
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1 decade ago
I know what you're going through—I understand that feeling of being lost that you're talking about. And it really sucks when you're worrying that you're overreacting. Honestly, the best thing for you to do right now is get help from somebody who you trust. You don't have to tell them everything that you've been going through. All that you have to do is go up to somebody you really trust, like a friend or a parent or even some online counselor, and tell them everything you've just told me. I know that it's totally stupid for me to be giving advice to you, since I'm too much of a coward to ask for help, but . . . maybe you could do it? And if you don't want to do it or if you don't think you really need help just yet, come and complain to me. Hope this helped (sorry if it didn't). <3 :) reply
WantingTheEnd
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1 decade ago
I know what you mean, you're like me...you can help others with their problems and give them advice, but you struggle to help yourself. You see i don't know what to do...all of the things i'm feeling and told my friend about, she said i need to get help, she's trying to make me go to the doctors or base51 for counselling...she looked them up and apparently they are all signs of depression, i didn't believe her so i went on yahooanswers and wrote down all of the things that have been happening like loss of appetite and lack of sleep and generally feeling low for no reason and everyone that replied said that it sounds like depression and they think i should go to the doctors and ask to be put on medication to help with it. The thought of that terrifies me...it all sounds rather...extreme...i feel like if i go the doctor will just judge me and say there's nothing wrong and then i'll feel even worse, like i'm a complete liar. I'm sorry for venting to you, you probably have your own problems to worry about...x reply
theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
omfg this is beautiful
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
omg I didn't see this until now but YES!!!
RENT/Les Mis/Next to Normal/musical theater in general = perfection
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
*internet high fives you*
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
omg sorry I didn't see this comment D: but YES HIM AS ENJOLRAS WAS AOSDFALSDKFALSDKFASDLFKA
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
lol thanks :)
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
OH MY GOD YOU GOT MY TOP LEFT HAND CORNER TO SAY "YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL." YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY THAT MADE ME :D :D :D sorry about all the caps lock, but seriously. you. are. amazing.
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bunnylover43 · 1 decade ago
Aww thanks :)
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
I'm not even sure if this is a joke...
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
Thank you :D :D
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
thank you :>
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
Thank youu GAHH YOU GUYS ARE ALL SO NICE :D
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
Thank you :)
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Patrick_Stop* · 1 decade ago
Anytime :)
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
Thank you :)
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
heya :) What's up?
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seeinggrayinacoloredworld · 1 decade ago
nothing much, just missing ppl
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
I am so sorry Nathan. I can't believe that you're actually gone. Beyond that, though, I can't believe that I never actually talked to you and tried to help you get better. I wish I had thought to do something while you were still here, but I guess I'm the person that proves the rule that people only care when you're dead. :( I am so so so sorry. We love you. <3 R. I. P., you amazing person. I hope you're okay.
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
Haha, thanks :)
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
DO YOU HEAR THE PEOPLE SING!! yayy somebody else knows les miserables :)
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
Haha, good to know that there are other Les Mis fangirls out there! xD ENJOLRAS FOREVER!
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
I know what you're going through—I understand that feeling of being lost that you're talking about. And it really sucks when you're worrying that you're overreacting. Honestly, the best thing for you to do right now is get help from somebody who you trust. You don't have to tell them everything that you've been going through. All that you have to do is go up to somebody you really trust, like a friend or a parent or even some online counselor, and tell them everything you've just told me. I know that it's totally stupid for me to be giving advice to you, since I'm too much of a coward to ask for help, but . . . maybe you could do it? And if you don't want to do it or if you don't think you really need help just yet, come and complain to me. Hope this helped (sorry if it didn't). <3 :)
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WantingTheEnd · 1 decade ago
I know what you mean, you're like me...you can help others with their problems and give them advice, but you struggle to help yourself. You see i don't know what to do...all of the things i'm feeling and told my friend about, she said i need to get help, she's trying to make me go to the doctors or base51 for counselling...she looked them up and apparently they are all signs of depression, i didn't believe her so i went on yahooanswers and wrote down all of the things that have been happening like loss of appetite and lack of sleep and generally feeling low for no reason and everyone that replied said that it sounds like depression and they think i should go to the doctors and ask to be put on medication to help with it. The thought of that terrifies me...it all sounds rather...extreme...i feel like if i go the doctor will just judge me and say there's nothing wrong and then i'll feel even worse, like i'm a complete liar. I'm sorry for venting to you, you probably have your own problems to worry about...x
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
YOU'RE BACK!!!! <3 <3 <3 I love you, gorgeous!!
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
Complain about anything you need to, I can delete your comments after reading them if it's anything too personal, just know that you can talk to me about anything and I'll understand. (Sorry that this sounds really cheesy.)
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WantingTheEnd · 1 decade ago
Okay thanks. Well i don't really know what's wrong if that makes any sense at all, just feel like i'm lost in a way, like nothing makes any sense to me anymore. Some days i'll be there like ''oh it's not that bad i think i can handle what tomorrow brings'' and other days i jjust don't see the point in being here anymore. Although my friend listens to me occasionally, she doesn't really help me out. But then again how is someone supposed to help me when i do not know what the problem is? I told my friend last night that on Tuesday i tried to overdose and i self-harmed and she's suggesting that i go to counselling or to the doctors to get some meds because she's worried. Apparently. I'm scared that she thinks i'm just attention seeking though because she's been put on anti-anxiety meds, but it's not that at all, i used to go to camhs following two overdoses and i got discharged in december, i was alright until the end of christmas and i've gone back to my old ways of not wanting to be near anyone, not wanting to go out, hating myself, hurting myself, but it feels different this time. Last time i had actual problems that were making my life difficult, but now there are none, it's all in my head and that's another reason i don't want to talk to someone professional or get meds, because it's all just in my head and i don't understand it. I can honestly say that i do not know what to do. Help? SO SORRY THAT WAS SO LONG.
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theawkwardauthor · 1 decade ago
I know what you're going through—I understand that feeling of being lost that you're talking about. And it really sucks when you're worrying that you're overreacting. Honestly, the best thing for you to do right now is get help from somebody who you trust. You don't have to tell them everything that you've been going through. All that you have to do is go up to somebody you really trust, like a friend or a parent or even some online counselor, and tell them everything you've just told me. I know that it's totally stupid for me to be giving advice to you, since I'm too much of a coward to ask for help, but . . . maybe you could do it? And if you don't want to do it or if you don't think you really need help just yet, come and complain to me. Hope this helped (sorry if it didn't). <3 :)
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WantingTheEnd · 1 decade ago
I know what you mean, you're like me...you can help others with their problems and give them advice, but you struggle to help yourself. You see i don't know what to do...all of the things i'm feeling and told my friend about, she said i need to get help, she's trying to make me go to the doctors or base51 for counselling...she looked them up and apparently they are all signs of depression, i didn't believe her so i went on yahooanswers and wrote down all of the things that have been happening like loss of appetite and lack of sleep and generally feeling low for no reason and everyone that replied said that it sounds like depression and they think i should go to the doctors and ask to be put on medication to help with it. The thought of that terrifies me...it all sounds rather...extreme...i feel like if i go the doctor will just judge me and say there's nothing wrong and then i'll feel even worse, like i'm a complete liar. I'm sorry for venting to you, you probably have your own problems to worry about...x
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