i'm Mariah. i just turned 17.
i love basically everyone and if you respect me, i'll respect you.
i do like girls more than boys, and there is one particular girl right now.
i struggle with an eating disorder, self harm, and depression, some anxiety.
i'm always here for you(:
leave me a comment and i'll reply.
i have kik, just ask for it (:
People think cutting is the only kind of self harm. that and burning. but they are so beyond wrong . self harm doesn't have to be physical or leave visible scars. pushing friends away, alienating yourself from relationships, telling yourself how you don't deserve love, or how worthless you are, those are types of self harm. and they are just as dangerous as cutting or burning. ♥
me: wakes up me: looks in mirror. mirror: nope still fat ana: nope don't eat stomach: feed me heart: you want her to like you right? ana: don't eat ana: don't eat ana: don't eat ana: don't eat mia: you ate. take some more pills. depression: come on eat you'll feel better ana: don't you dare f c k i n g eat. anxiety: don't eat you'll feel sick... but maybe you should eat cos you'll feel better. oh no. i don't know what to do anymore. ana: don't eat. ana: you're fat. and disgusting. and a pig. and you wont be perfect until you are too dead to see it.
things that went right today: 1. I have officially lost 10 lbs since October. 2. I got called skinny by a girl who weighs 30 lbs less than me. 3. I got asked to play piano for a wedding reception for quite a bit of money. 4. I got skinnier 5. (kinda bad but) I used laxatives for the first time ever. Things that went bad today: 1. ....I didn't know how strong laxatives actually are.