I've figured out that life goes on, it doesn't stop for nobody, not even when they need it most. It doesn't pause or rewind so you can change things from the past, it just goes on and on. And you know what? as it does, you figure out that the people that hurt you & put you down, really do just make you stronger in the end. You also get a glimpse of what to watch out for in the future, which keeps your mind clear of who to watch out for. People can come into your life meaning nothing at all to you, and in such a short time, mean everything. People walk right in and out of your life, so I've learned to never make anyone my everything. Because when they leave, you seriously feel like you have nothing. Makes you feel sorta like you have nothing left to live for. Sometimes, you never hear a word from that person again. AND SOMETIMES, the only time you hear from them is when they want to tell you all the mean things they think about you. But I don't know what else to say.. It took me 3 whole months to build my self back up, 3 WHOLE MONTHS, and I'm positive I'm still not 100% finished. When you're constantly being hurt with horrible words thrown at you, it's a lot longer than it seems. Sometimes, I just want to say that I'm sorry for everything I put you through, and all the hate I gave you was a waste of time when we could have been friends all along. Then I think about how when I tried to say I was sorry, you told me it meant nothing to you.... For that I hated you, I hated you so much that it made me hate myself. You made me act like a monster, but I guess that only made two of us.
OHYEAH, IT'S LONG, but worth reading.