My name's Jess but you can call me Jessy-Jess, Lil Nemo, Shorty, Brown Eyes, or Jessie.
I'm absolutely thankful I have my friends, family, music and writing. I don't know what I'd do without them.
I love soccer, singing, riding horses, and just being a kid.
I love helping people, but sometimes, I need help too.
Love you! Stay young!
snapple2929 posted a quote
October 31, 2012 12:53am UTC
According to Greek mythology, the first humans were created with 4 arms, 4 legs, 4 eyss, 2 noses, and 2 mouths. Afraid of their power, Zeus split them in half, leaving them to find the other half of themselves. These people are called our soulmates... <3
I can't believe how 1 person makes so everything so much better. He makes me feel special, wanted, important, and loves me for all my quirks and flaws. I can't believe he was there all this time. He tickles my sides, wraps his hands around my waist, and pulls me close. He leans his chin on my head and I can feel him smile. He mutters something to himself and my stomach flutters. Hearing his voice releases the butterflies inside me. He grabs my hands and twirls me around with a big smile on his face. He catches me and kisses me with a big smile on his face. It looks so good on him. I have to thank my sister because without her, i never would've found him. These 2 people are my best friends and the people I hope to have forever... I LOVE YOU.<3
snapple2929 posted a quote
September 24, 2012 12:06am UTC
RIP Opa. <3 since the time i can remember you have been the one i could always run to, joke with, love, and respect. you never gave me a reason not to. you were always such a fighter, and a smart man. I could always count on you to help me and/or support me. I really do love you, and will always call you a hero of mine. you were the fighter i always wanted to be, and i will be for you. i will try not to disappoint you or Oma. i will never forget you or ever stop loving you. i already miss you, and i hope you made it in time for dinner with Oma. i really hope you don't have anymore pain or worries. mommy and i are fine. i promise i'll take care of her and spaz for you. i love you. shine bright, fighter. you deserve to. December 3rd, 1932 - September 22nd, 2012
I can honestly say you've been on my mind since I woke up today. I look at your photograph all the time. These memories come back to life and I don't mind I remember when we kissed. I still feel it on my lips. The time that you danced with me when no music playing. I remember the simple things; i remember til I cry But the one thing I wish I forget; the memory I wanna forget, is goodbye. I remember every moment of that weekend. I remember every kiss, every laugh, every smile. I miss you, but you're with her now. I can't stand this. I have to leave, before memories kill me inside. I'm sorry. I want you happy, and I know you'll be better off and happier if you don't have a living memory from the past hanuting you. I want to say this to you, but I couldn't without breaking down. I couldn't send it to you because I'm too scared of your response. I don't know what you're thinking, and I bet you think I'm crazy and this will be like every other time, but I'm done. I won't move down there because I'd run into you eventually. I'm not going to talk to you, I'm not going to listen to stories about you, I won't do it. It will tear me apart, but I can do it. I'm sorry. This is my last goodbye. I'm done killing myself holding onto something that I know will never happen again, and seeing you and knowing I can't kiss you. Goodbye. Forever.
i try and move on, but it doesn't happen. rumors surround me daily, i get mean texts, i hear people talking about me behind my back... same that happened in school. i can't believe he'd stoop that low and break up with me because of rumors. he should take a walk in my shoes one of these days. then MAYBE he'd realize how hard it was and is for me.... i don't understand. he said he really liked me but he won't even look at me or talk to me anymore.... yeah great person huh? seems like he has a lot of respect for girls huh? sorry i just had to vent and i couldn't hold it in anymore. i'm now bawling. it's been over a month, and he's with another girl..... i don't know why i can't move on. i just thought... idk
I'm just a girl or tries to please everyone, tries to have fun, tries to be strong, but now I'm at my breaking point. My life is falling apart. I didn't try to ruin Emily and Ryan. I didn't try to steal Jon from Jordann. I didn't sleep with Dan. I don't try and screw things up. Things are getting blamed on me that never happened. I just want to be the old Jess. The scared, content in her own shell, never out there, quiet Jess. I never meant for ANY OF THIS to happen. It may seem really bad, but I'm not that bad of a person. I feel like I have to prove myself to everyone now, but you know what? I'm not. I'll go back and fall off the face of the earth. I'll go, like everyone wants. I'll take the drama with me. I'm sorry I caused you so much pain. I really am. Consider me gone.
I think I am really falling for him. He's sweet He makes me laugh until i cry He's not afraid to be romantic and show his feminine side. He cares about himself. He makes sure he knows he makes me feel special and his one and only. He's smart. He's strong He's cute. He gives his attention to me. He's honest He's special. BEST OF ALL... TOMORROW.... HE'LL BE MINE <3
I fake the smiles. I fake the laughs. no one notices if i'm in sweats or tight jeans. no one cares. when i'm upset, no one asks if i'm ok or gives me a hug. when i'm sick, i don't get messages asking if i'm ok. no one notices me. if i disappeared, no one would notice or care. why live in complete aggony when i could be happy somewhere else? what would be the harm in that? someone better could take my place. Someone who is worth something to people.
you were "always supposed to be there". you were my rock. I thought i'd have you forever, even just as a friend. that's all i'd ever want. we could talk about ANYTHING with each other. i gave you my heart, my strength and let you in, and what did you do? when i warned you and tried to help you, you left me. i just want to figure this out, and know what you want, so i can either move on, or stay. tell me. i'll go if you want me to. I'LL RUN AWAY FROM YOU AS FAST AS MY FEET WILL TAKE ME. but i may do that anyway. i can't get through my everyday life without you. and if i run, i hope you'll chase me. or find me on the side of the road. you're killing me. if you don't talk to me, you will kill me. c'mon. "big bro" has to talk to me sometime. If I don't get an answer, i'll run, and your problem will disappear. you never have to see me again. hope you're happy.
Everytime you smile at me, my heart goes wild. Today, you gave me the biggest smile and looked into my eyes while we passed in the hallway. It's been over 2 days and I still can't get you outta my mind :)
You have no clue how much i want you with me. You may never have a clue about how much i miss you when you're gone. You will never have a clue how many butterflies flutter in my stomach when you smile at me or hug me When people mention your name, I can't help but smile. All this means I LOVE YOU <3
Everytime you smile at me, my heart goes wild. Today, you gave me the biggest smile and looked into my eyes while we passed in the hallway. It's been over 5 hours and I still can't get u outta my mind :) Please say YES!
snapple2929 posted a quote
November 19, 2011 12:32pm UTC
Last night, while sitting in my room, i stumbled upon my grandmother's favorite quote "Stand up for what's right, even if you're standing alone." She died more than 5 years ago. I instantly thought of the phrase in german. that was the first german phrase she taught me. I started balling my eyes out. I don't know how but I realized how good I have it to some people, and how bad I have it compared to others. That's why people apologize for me suffering and them not helping me. People don't understand that I don't want sympathy. I just want people to see why I have to keep a smile on my face on most days, but when I have a frown on my face or a tear running down my cheek, there's something wrong. Some of the most important people in my life understand, but other must learn or i will snap. But I will always honor that saying. It is my life motto. Always has, always is.