i never knew how much you could hate seeing or hearing one stupid name. i dont think you realise how much you hurt me, cause if you did you wouldnt just say sorry and claim to 'mean it'. just seeing your name printed across her stupid profile, seeing your stupid pictures makes me cringe. it makes me sickk to my stomach. it makes me grit my teeth so hard. the memories make me physically scream OUCH. you think your clever? making me feel this way? you probably think your 'sick' or 'cool' for making a girl fall for you? making her believe all those lies and promises you didnt intend to keep. making her sit on cloud nine, only to drop her back down in a instance. for making her fudging believe you actually loved her. cause the truth is ..you really didnt. if you really did feel anything for me, you wouldnt just drop me just like that. you wouldnt have played me like a toy and used me for entertainment. cause TBH thats just sickening, how you played with a girls heart like that. i wish and i hope you get hurt, betrayed, broken and used, just like i did. ..just so you can begin to feel the pain that i did. i did? no the pain i still feel. its inevitable. i cant let it go. its not a wave of a wand & tada! its suddenly all over and im over you. cause believe me, if that was possible, i wouldnt have waved it a million times by now. LOL, so your sorry? whats sorry gonna do? is it gonna make me forget you exist? it is gonna make me forget the pain? ..is it fxck. sorry doesnt mean jack shxt to me anymore, not from your mouth anyway. i get why you picked her. shes ovbiously so much more beautiful. -thats undenyable. shes probably got it all, shes probably much more fun to be round. but there is one thing she lacks, and thats the ability to care for you as much i do. and i can fight whoever you want me to, just to make it clear to you. you make me want to throw you into oncoming traffic, but i realised ide only ill myself trying to save you. i know it pains me to say, -but i know ill be there at the end of the day.
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