i miss her .. </3 . what happened to wanting to spend the rest of your life with me & what happened to getting married ? what happened to everything being alright ? what happened to not loosing me again ? what did i do for you to hate me & push me out of your life? i tried to help yous with your cutting & eating disorder, but all i did i did was make it worse .. </3 fml .. i'm nothing without h e r .. why can't she come back to me & say 'i love you sean<3 !'? life sucks without you; nplease take me back & say you love me? i stilll love you & i wish i had you back .. i remember when i would hold you in my arms & tell you i loved you at random times & then i would occasionally kiss you; why cna't we go back to that ? .. </3
I MISS YOU HEATHER ! please take me back & tell me that you love me & we'll be together foreveer? please? i'll do ANYTHING for that to happen ! .. </3
now, i'm going crazy about our break up .. i'm cuuttting, drinking, wanting to do drugs to harm myself because i lost you .. i'm a mess without you .. please, lets go back to the old us? where we used to talk all the time, hang out all the time, tell eahcother how much we loved eachother, how we would tease eachother, how i would tickle you to see your beautiful smile, how i would hold you in my arms so tightly & never wanting to let go, kissing you, holding hands, having you comfort me through the times i needed you most, etcc. you we're the best person that eveer entered my life & you said you'd never leave me life; now, why did you go & break up with me? i thought i was the sweetest, most cute & caring guy that ever lived? you used to make my self esteem go up .. now, it's the worst it's ever been; i'm even thinking about suicide because of the fact that i lost you & that i hate myself .. please! please, let me fall back into your loving arms? that was the only place i felt safe from everything & the place wherte i felt most loved .. </3
please, heather ! i'll do anything for you to love me again !
i just can't stop thinking about you; i have dreams about you & i wake up in the middle of the night, usually right when you are about to make me feel REALLY loved, i wake up & start to cry, sometimes even cut.. my life is a mess & it's headed straight for disaster; please, you made me actually wanna get up in the morning because i knew i had someone to wake up to & love .. pleas take me back? i love you & i miss you ! i'm lost without you $ i want you back SO BAD; please, tell me why there's ALWAYS a better boy?
UGH, fml! i wanna die.