Escaping the TensionMy heart beats fast, sweat ran down my forehead, my body felt like it weighs a ton, my feet are stuck on the ground, I can’t go on, how did I let my friends to put me in this situation? My head’s spinning, heck I can’t remember the words now, what do I do if I mess up? I don’t want to do this anymore, I want to go back home and just watch the auditions on TV, eating popcorn or ice cream. I feel so flustered, my heart just can’t stop its pace, I want to quit, really I do, but why can’t I? My name just got called out; I hear the cheers and applause of the audiences in front of me, I want to stop walking onto the stage, my body is moving on its own! I don’t think I can talk, I can’t sing either, so why!!!! One of the judges asked me my name, I tried to sound confident, and my name came out in a rushed squeak like a mouse. Oh no! The judges are looking at me; their eyes uncomfortable, my hands can’t stop shaking, in another minute my whole body will break down, no! I have to sing, I finally have the courage to take the audition, and I will not let this pass! No, I just can’t do it. The music started, the soft melody playing in my ears, it calms my nerves, I forget my surroundings and I only want to sing and feel it connect with the tune. This lovely tune, takes me to another world, the courage of never giving up, the feelings I put inside the words, I don’t want it to end, please, just let time stop on this music, where I can sing and take the stage to myself, keep this melody in my head, keep singing, this never ending sensation of happiness, but the music is over, the melodies die out and I stand there going back to the nerve wracking reality. I hear silence all around me, I can hear the breaths, I can see the look in their eyes, examining my whole body, and as if the play button was pressed, the whole room went like a bomb.
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