hey there. my name is tosha. i blow out the candles in March, & i'm 14 years young. i'm bisexual, & i like to have fun. i could sit here & tell you about my life, but none of that matters. you wanna know about my life? it all starts with a boy named Jamie. i used to be a big drinker, & i used to be addicted to hardcore drugs. i now have a liver problem, because of my bad mistakes. if they don't cure it, i'm going to die. Jamie has been there. he's always listened to me, & he promises me he'll be there till the end. he's such an amazing person, and to tell you the absoulte complete truth; i'm in love with him. i lost him once, & i don't ever want to go through that again. i truly don't know what i would do without him. he's gotten me through so much. he makes me smile, all the time, & he takes my breath away. when i'm talking to him, it feels like gravity is no longer holding me to the Earth. the best part? we're so close, & we live 3 hours away from each other, but yet we're stronger than ever.
i love you, Jamie.
forever & always. <3
-we talked just like we used to, just a decent conversation for the first time in awhile, and for that split second it was like we forgave each other for everything. -i'm grown pretty content with this life i lead, where i drink to much and don't care about much of anything. -i just have the horrible feeling that one day, you're going to wake up and realize i'm not as great as you once thought i was.
i'm done caring. i'm just letting go.
prettyletdown posted a quote
March 2, 2012 10:54pm UTC
forgeterr's signature format. Please don't remove credit. Or I will hunt you down. You do NOT want to get on my bad side. there's a big thunderstorm here.. i can't even explain the feeling of dancing in the rain.. its the only time i ever feel alive, and free. moving my body to the rythme, and feeling the wetness beneath my feet is the most amazing feeling ever. it's almost like, with every drop, my flaws, scars, mistakes, tears, and regrets are being washed away. i feel so pure..
prettyletdown posted a quote
January 27, 2012 6:27pm UTC
it's like one step forward, and two steps back. no matter what i do, you're always mad. and i, i'm finally starting to see, maybe we're not meant to be.
prettyletdown posted a quote
January 21, 2012 7:22pm UTC
*VENT* i am disgusted with my body. i just want to feel beautiful, and be skinnier for my boyfriend. now, if you'll excuse me, i have to go force myself the 2 toaster strudles, 2 poptarts, rice krispie treat, and the supposed "sub" i was "eating." so my boyfriend doesn't find out i'm a bulemic/anorexic person. good day.
prettyletdown posted a quote
January 9, 2012 10:39pm UTC
yeah, this is a plain quote. so what? anyways. i see people making sad, depressing quotes on here ALL the time. i know it may not seem like it, but i'm a good listener. so PLEASE. if you're just having a bad day, or if you're thinking negative thoughts; please come talk to me first, before you do anything stupid. i'll always be here. for ALL of you.
prettyletdown posted a quote
January 3, 2012 11:15pm UTC
i need a witty bestfriend.. i know i've said this before, but everyone always leaves me. i'm not kidding. i want someone who's gonna call me at 3am. who's gonna be there, through everything. someone i can trust, & run to for help. & i promise to always be there for you. i know i'm damaged at best.. but i'm still lovable. right? so.. any takers?
prettyletdown posted a quote
December 29, 2011 11:26pm UTC
9am tomorrow Jamie will be at my house, & i will be seeing him for the first time in 2 years. this will be the perfect day. i can not wait to see his face. he's made 2011 worthwhile ♥
prettyletdown posted a quote
December 23, 2011 5:07pm UTC
wanna know a secret? he keeps me alive. he's my motivation. he lives 3 hours way, but i will be seeing him in a couple of days for the first time in 2 years. that is what keeps me alive. he motivates me to live another day, take another breath. if i can just pull through another day, without swallowing pills, or drinking another bottle of Whiskey, or pulling out my razor, i can see him. that's all that matters.
prettyletdown posted a quote
December 22, 2011 4:15pm UTC
Me: mommy, my stomach hurts really bad. Mom: maybe you're in labor? like that one show, "I Didn't Know I was Pregnant." Me: yeah, or that one show, "I Didn't Know I Wasn't a Virgin."