Since young, I wasn't really taught by my parents on 'how to love'. Life used to be very easy for me as we could afford to buy anything we wanted without complaints. I basically just did anything I wanted to, it was easy; but coming to reality right now when I'm becoming older, it's hard to accept people's love. I've rejected many, I've given many, I've learnt a lot. I've tried to be a good person, it didn't help much - I got betrayed, got played, got cheated, got fooled; and then I became a bad person, it was great - made enemies with many and I had friends whom actually are still friends with me since young. I tried being a nicer person again, but however with me doing so, things don't go the way I want them to, you know? I had to overcome being lied to and being fooled, it's not so nice. Once, I felt like I've begun to like this significant other, so I took a chance into talking to him, trying to make friends with him, trying to make him comfortable talking to me; I had to be nice. But you know what? He demanded for things, things I couldn't give. I tried so hard to avoid some topics I wouldn't go through with him, I tried so hard, but he just kept coming and coming. Demanding, for more...and more. Trust, is hard. Being nice is such a misery, I'd always have to remind myself not to hurt anyone's feelings, but now, I really can't. When people are too nice, other people treat it as an advantage to take over. I really don't know to whether be nice or not.