nmr22 posted a quote
November 25, 2021 11:53pm UTC
i was filling out a form and the form asked *what are some of your strengths?* and me being the hilarious comedian i am was like *ohhhh nooo ha ha ha its asking me what my sTrEnGtHs are ahh* expecting her to laugh with me but instead shes like *oh noo haha you can leave it blank* jesus christ
when i was a little kid, i was playing downstairs and there was a mattress standing up against the wall. it was there for a while but i remember when it fell on top of me. i couldnt move, i couldnt scream, i couldnt breathe, i couldnt even hear anything. it was the first time in my life when i learned what the panic of suffocation felt like but then suddenly i felt comfortable and suddenly i felt safe and just as suddenly, they pulled it off of me.
to all my friends who I went away from I just want to say I still love all of you, every single day. and I miss you. Im so sorry to anyone that i ever hurt, things that ive done and said over the years, i have alot of work to do and alot of things to unlearn myself but i will always want the very very very best for you all and even though we arent in eachother’s lives anymore, you’re always in my heart and I think about you every day. please always be good to yourselves and take care of yourselves I love you nova💖
I dont even know if you even know that you stepped up for me at the beginning of the darkest times in my life and I didn’t even need to tell you that anything was wrong. Somehow you knew and you didn’t let me be alone. I’m sorry I didn’t do the same for you
Somewhere else, it's like here but different Somewhere we can just be a place that opens a whole new world in a world we already know Where we can explore even the tiniest fibers of a tree and give meaning to anything just by the touch of a soul somewhere not like here
what do you do when you dont really feel like a person anymore but everyone still perceives you? when nothing around you even feels real and your memories all scatter until you dont know what is even real and what is the dream world? everything that felt so vivid could never have been real and everything that you forget are the ones that are worth remembering. how do you manage to do everything that you just do when you arent a person anymore. just a shell with nothing left of you but shame, and love. so much love.