I lie in bed at night and can't sleep, My tummy hurts cuz I hasn't had enough to eat. Stomach cramps leave me writhing in pain, Clutching at my abdomen. it's happening again... "Why, Oh why did I get this way? I only wanted to lose a little bit of weight... I wish I could be happy, but it's too late", I thinks as she picks at the food on my plate. I tried to take a bite but it's not happening. Convinced that a piece of toast is too fattening... Every time that I try to eat, All I see are the faces of high school bullies. I used to look in the mirror and cry, Looking back at ,e was a girl twice my size... Distorted, self-perceptive view through my eyes, Enhanced furthermore by the media lies. Reality's perception, Perception pre-defined. Weight loss encouraged and even glorified. MTV is brainwashing our children, Visually and sociologically, With a fake size zero philosophy. An ideology that you've gotta be thin, To appear in any program on that station, And that's the reason I don't watch TV, Cuz I'm scared of the person who I might be. In this segregated room of bleached out white, The black ink of my pen bleeds when I write. The frail, decrepit, ghost looking back at me, Is but a shadow of the girl who used to leave a trail of color, Through this monochrome world. I'm praying for the day that my smile returns. I tell myself not to lose hope, My tiny food problem got out of control, Who since last week doesn't eat no more!