Jillian Marie*
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8 years ago
It doesn't even look like you dear lord. Guess I'm just thinking about you because I'm leaving for Detroit tomorrow, but it really doesn't matter because tbh, my life is so much better without you in it. reply
Jillian Marie*
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8 years ago
Wow is that you in your picture? I don't even recognize you, but I guess a year will do that. I'm proud that you graduated and I wish you all the best :* reply
Jillian Marie*
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8 years ago
It doesn't even look like you dear lord. Guess I'm just thinking about you because I'm leaving for Detroit tomorrow, but it really doesn't matter because tbh, my life is so much better without you in it. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3 reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant. reply
nevergrowup89
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9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3 reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
You sound like my therapist. I can't fcking do it. I really shouldn't put this all on you...I'm sorry. iloveyou. reply
nevergrowup89
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9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3 reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I don't know anymore. No one wants to be around me when I'm depressed. Maddy and Dani have seemed really fake lately...really everyone I trusted has. I still really don't feel safe and idk. I'm still cutting because I don't know how else to deal with stuff. I'm so close to losing my virginity just to feel something. And I'm sorry for putting this all on you but I don't know what else to do. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
You sound like my therapist. I can't fcking do it. I really shouldn't put this all on you...I'm sorry. iloveyou. reply
nevergrowup89
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9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3 reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
Don't be sorry Holly. If he's nice and you're happy then you shouldn't be. I'm the one who should be sorry...for almost killing myself. I'm trying now, although 100mg of anti depression/anxiety medication and weekly therapy haven't really been doing anything. I really hope you're better off than I am. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I don't know anymore. No one wants to be around me when I'm depressed. Maddy and Dani have seemed really fake lately...really everyone I trusted has. I still really don't feel safe and idk. I'm still cutting because I don't know how else to deal with stuff. I'm so close to losing my virginity just to feel something. And I'm sorry for putting this all on you but I don't know what else to do. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
You sound like my therapist. I can't fcking do it. I really shouldn't put this all on you...I'm sorry. iloveyou. reply
nevergrowup89
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9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3 reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
Don't be sorry Holly. If he's nice and you're happy then you shouldn't be. I'm the one who should be sorry...for almost killing myself. I'm trying now, although 100mg of anti depression/anxiety medication and weekly therapy haven't really been doing anything. I really hope you're better off than I am. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I don't know anymore. No one wants to be around me when I'm depressed. Maddy and Dani have seemed really fake lately...really everyone I trusted has. I still really don't feel safe and idk. I'm still cutting because I don't know how else to deal with stuff. I'm so close to losing my virginity just to feel something. And I'm sorry for putting this all on you but I don't know what else to do. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
You sound like my therapist. I can't fcking do it. I really shouldn't put this all on you...I'm sorry. iloveyou. reply
nevergrowup89
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9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy. reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3 reply
Jillian Marie*
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9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
Baby you mean so much to me and I can't stop thinking about it. I just don't know about anything. Stuff is bad around here and I want it all to end, but I know taking my life would mean you taking yours and I don't want that to happen. Idk. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I don't know. I want so badly to give up, and it's not like anyone would try and stop me anyways. Besides you, and you matter a lot but you've been angry with me lately and idk. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
Baby you mean so much to me and I can't stop thinking about it. I just don't know about anything. Stuff is bad around here and I want it all to end, but I know taking my life would mean you taking yours and I don't want that to happen. Idk. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
The point is that I can't make my own happiness anymore. I literally run on about 3 hours of sleep every day because I can't fall asleep and when I do, I have nightmares. I have to fcking force myself to eat because of how bad the nausea is (and I've definitely been eating less). Things have just gone way downhill and I'm done with it. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I don't know. I want so badly to give up, and it's not like anyone would try and stop me anyways. Besides you, and you matter a lot but you've been angry with me lately and idk. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
Baby you mean so much to me and I can't stop thinking about it. I just don't know about anything. Stuff is bad around here and I want it all to end, but I know taking my life would mean you taking yours and I don't want that to happen. Idk. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out... reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents. reply
Jillian Marie*
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1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more... reply
nevergrowup89 · 8 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 8 years ago
It doesn't even look like you dear lord. Guess I'm just thinking about you because I'm leaving for Detroit tomorrow, but it really doesn't matter because tbh, my life is so much better without you in it.
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nevergrowup89 · 8 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 8 years ago
Wow is that you in your picture? I don't even recognize you, but I guess a year will do that. I'm proud that you graduated and I wish you all the best :*
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nevergrowup89 · 8 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 8 years ago
It doesn't even look like you dear lord. Guess I'm just thinking about you because I'm leaving for Detroit tomorrow, but it really doesn't matter because tbh, my life is so much better without you in it.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
You sound like my therapist. I can't fcking do it. I really shouldn't put this all on you...I'm sorry. iloveyou.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I don't know anymore. No one wants to be around me when I'm depressed. Maddy and Dani have seemed really fake lately...really everyone I trusted has. I still really don't feel safe and idk. I'm still cutting because I don't know how else to deal with stuff. I'm so close to losing my virginity just to feel something. And I'm sorry for putting this all on you but I don't know what else to do.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
You sound like my therapist. I can't fcking do it. I really shouldn't put this all on you...I'm sorry. iloveyou.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
Don't be sorry Holly. If he's nice and you're happy then you shouldn't be. I'm the one who should be sorry...for almost killing myself. I'm trying now, although 100mg of anti depression/anxiety medication and weekly therapy haven't really been doing anything. I really hope you're better off than I am.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I don't know anymore. No one wants to be around me when I'm depressed. Maddy and Dani have seemed really fake lately...really everyone I trusted has. I still really don't feel safe and idk. I'm still cutting because I don't know how else to deal with stuff. I'm so close to losing my virginity just to feel something. And I'm sorry for putting this all on you but I don't know what else to do.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
You sound like my therapist. I can't fcking do it. I really shouldn't put this all on you...I'm sorry. iloveyou.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
Oh okay....well that was inevitable. I'm sorry for bothering you.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
Don't be sorry Holly. If he's nice and you're happy then you shouldn't be. I'm the one who should be sorry...for almost killing myself. I'm trying now, although 100mg of anti depression/anxiety medication and weekly therapy haven't really been doing anything. I really hope you're better off than I am.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I don't know anymore. No one wants to be around me when I'm depressed. Maddy and Dani have seemed really fake lately...really everyone I trusted has. I still really don't feel safe and idk. I'm still cutting because I don't know how else to deal with stuff. I'm so close to losing my virginity just to feel something. And I'm sorry for putting this all on you but I don't know what else to do.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
You sound like my therapist. I can't fcking do it. I really shouldn't put this all on you...I'm sorry. iloveyou.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I try Holly, I try.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I try Holly, I try.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Hmm you sure about that babydoll?
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I try Holly, I try.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby how are you holding up? I feel really bad just complaining about myself .-.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Hmm you sure about that babydoll?
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I try Holly, I try.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby how are you holding up? I feel really bad just complaining about myself .-.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Hmm you sure about that babydoll?
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I try Holly, I try.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby...I just want you to know how badly I need you here.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby how are you holding up? I feel really bad just complaining about myself .-.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Hmm you sure about that babydoll?
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I try Holly, I try.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby you mean so much to me and I can't stop thinking about it. I just don't know about anything. Stuff is bad around here and I want it all to end, but I know taking my life would mean you taking yours and I don't want that to happen. Idk.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby...I just want you to know how badly I need you here.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby how are you holding up? I feel really bad just complaining about myself .-.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Hmm you sure about that babydoll?
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I try Holly, I try.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I don't know. I want so badly to give up, and it's not like anyone would try and stop me anyways. Besides you, and you matter a lot but you've been angry with me lately and idk.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby you mean so much to me and I can't stop thinking about it. I just don't know about anything. Stuff is bad around here and I want it all to end, but I know taking my life would mean you taking yours and I don't want that to happen. Idk.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby...I just want you to know how badly I need you here.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby how are you holding up? I feel really bad just complaining about myself .-.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Hmm you sure about that babydoll?
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I try Holly, I try.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
The point is that I can't make my own happiness anymore. I literally run on about 3 hours of sleep every day because I can't fall asleep and when I do, I have nightmares. I have to fcking force myself to eat because of how bad the nausea is (and I've definitely been eating less). Things have just gone way downhill and I'm done with it.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I don't know. I want so badly to give up, and it's not like anyone would try and stop me anyways. Besides you, and you matter a lot but you've been angry with me lately and idk.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby you mean so much to me and I can't stop thinking about it. I just don't know about anything. Stuff is bad around here and I want it all to end, but I know taking my life would mean you taking yours and I don't want that to happen. Idk.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby...I just want you to know how badly I need you here.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby how are you holding up? I feel really bad just complaining about myself .-.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Hmm you sure about that babydoll?
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I try Holly, I try.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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