Jillian Marie* · 8 years ago
I hope prom was amazing, I bet you looked beautiful. I miss you...
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Jillian Marie* · 8 years ago
Wow is that you in your picture? I don't even recognize you, but I guess a year will do that. I'm proud that you graduated and I wish you all the best :*
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Jillian Marie* · 8 years ago
It doesn't even look like you dear lord. Guess I'm just thinking about you because I'm leaving for Detroit tomorrow, but it really doesn't matter because tbh, my life is so much better without you in it.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I need to make a correction. I said I think I don't love you anymore. I should've said I KNOW. Goodbye Holly Nicole....
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I was talking to my therapist today about our relationship and she said there were several signs that you might have been emotionally abusive. Just thought I'd put that out there.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
Wow okay things have been too crazy to explain but I started thinking about you A LOT last night and just wanted to know how things are for you and if you got my email. And just yeah. iloveyousomuch.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
Oh okay....well that was inevitable. I'm sorry for bothering you.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
Don't be sorry Holly. If he's nice and you're happy then you shouldn't be. I'm the one who should be sorry...for almost killing myself. I'm trying now, although 100mg of anti depression/anxiety medication and weekly therapy haven't really been doing anything. I really hope you're better off than I am.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I don't know anymore. No one wants to be around me when I'm depressed. Maddy and Dani have seemed really fake lately...really everyone I trusted has. I still really don't feel safe and idk. I'm still cutting because I don't know how else to deal with stuff. I'm so close to losing my virginity just to feel something. And I'm sorry for putting this all on you but I don't know what else to do.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
You sound like my therapist. I can't fcking do it. I really shouldn't put this all on you...I'm sorry. iloveyou.
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nevergrowup89 · 9 years ago
I sound like her because its true. And I can't say that back. I'm happy right now, I'm not going to be the girl who tells someone else they love them when they are happily taken. I'm sorry.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I don't want to make this an angry letter but I'm afraid it's going to have to be. You know better than anyone that I get angry when I'm emotional and I'm sure emotional right now. I'm feeling lots of emotions, and none of them are good. I don't even know if I'm angry, but Holly you have no idea what you just did to me. You lied to me. You broke my heart in two. You caused me a major panic attack. I can't believe you fcking kept this from me. I know I hurt you, more than I could even imagine. But you really have no idea the kinds of hurt I'm feeling right now. It pains me because of how you sound. You sound bright, optimistic, and much happier than you EVER were with me. You don't have to lie anymore, I really didn't treat you the way he did. And speaking of lies, you sure as heck told a lot of those. We were going to get married? Doubt it. You were never going to find anyone else? Well look how that one turned out. Do you even think about me at all anymore? Probably not. I'm sorry, but I'm a monster. You deserve so much better than me...you deserve him. You just go fck your Mr. Perfect Prince Charming boyfriend and forget I ever happened. Just break every promise you ever made me. I'll do the same thing. My legs are already ripped up and my wrists are next. You think you're still getting my virginity? Think again. Oh and do me a favor and listen to Bulletproof Love by Pierce the Veil. Thanks. I've said this before, but this time I really mean it...I don't know if I love you anymore. So just do me a favor and don't email, Witty, whatever me. Thanks for the memories, but this is done. I hope you're fcking happy.
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
I hope you know that all I ever wanted was a response. That's why I have bothered you for the past months...I wanted closure and I haven't gotten it. I don't care if it's angry. I just wanted a fcking goodbye or something because you were the only one who ever understood me. And yes, I did say I don't love you anymore. I'm sorry if the things I said were hurtful because you don't deserve to be hurt. You deserve the best, and if he is than so be it. I guess I was never meant to have you now. If our paths cross in the future, I look forward to seeing you again but if not, then I wish you the best of luck on your journey. Keep smiling Holly. And goodbye <3
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Jillian Marie* · 9 years ago
That's all you fcking have to say? Thanks a lot for a bullshi.t relationship. I know I'm being harsh but you have NO IDEA how badly this is tearing me up inside. I hope he gets you pregnant.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Holly I'm scared.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
God my mind can't stop imagining the worst. If you're dead you would have told me first right? But then again Maddy refused to kik you and say I was worried about you, so maybe you two are in on some secret plot to get you here and you haven't been on because you don't want to give away the surprise (okay maybe that's a stretch). I cut again last night and honestly I'm planning on killing myself Sunday morning after championships. Where are you Holly?
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I don't know....this time it feels more serious than the others. I'm planning on sleeping in after championships so I can do it while my parents are at church.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm sorry...
I just can't stop worrying about you. I don't worry about myself nearly as much. I'm not that important.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
What other fcking options are there? I'm just done with everything.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
The point is that I can't make my own happiness anymore. I literally run on about 3 hours of sleep every day because I can't fall asleep and when I do, I have nightmares. I have to fcking force myself to eat because of how bad the nausea is (and I've definitely been eating less). Things have just gone way downhill and I'm done with it.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I don't know. I want so badly to give up, and it's not like anyone would try and stop me anyways. Besides you, and you matter a lot but you've been angry with me lately and idk.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby you mean so much to me and I can't stop thinking about it. I just don't know about anything. Stuff is bad around here and I want it all to end, but I know taking my life would mean you taking yours and I don't want that to happen. Idk.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby...I just want you to know how badly I need you here.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Well Maddy and I now have a movie day planned for Sunday, which is better than my original plan. I may just have to stick this out...
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby how are you holding up? I feel really bad just complaining about myself .-.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Hmm you sure about that babydoll?
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
That's awesome sweetie(:
I had championships yesterday, and that's a story and a half. Our guard is combined, and all the girls from the other school are like my best friends. We got there early to watch our percussion perform and then played card games and hung out until our performance time. I ended up sobbing in the hallway because of the girls from my own school, but my friends (and my friend's boyfriend, who barely knows me) gave me hugs and our instructor yelled at them. So yeah our score was decent and we got top 10. Not bad actually...my legs are a mess though because of my parents.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I try Holly, I try.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I'm scared of myself, to be honest. Last night was the worst I've cut in a while...I have the word failure cut into my leg because that's honestly what my parents and the girls from guard made me feel like. I'm afraid because I want more...
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know why you get angry with me. I feel like I failed you too...
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby it's fine. You know how I get though...I was just incredibly worried. I know how it is. If you want to talk I'm here.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I swear to god you don't even know how fcking much you're scaring me. I need to talk to you. Where are you when I need you...?
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby I'm worried about you.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Um...I need to talk. I'm sobbing right now and it may be that I have the worst cold in the world, but I can't think straight. Like at all. I know we're supposed to be taking a break, I just don't have anyone else to talk to.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Okay so I'm slightly less tired this morning and I'm ready to talk. The cold is definitely getting better(:

So Wednesday was just a bad day in general for me. But something happened...when we were changing out of our gym clothes Maya saw my scars. They're pretty noticeable because...um I cut Monday night and yeah. I just felt so awkward because she was being sweet about it and idk. She didn't even want to say it out loud because "that would be inconsiderate". So I ended up not sitting with her at lunch because yeah. I sat with my band friends, but all they do is argue and now I have nowhere to sit. Then later I was texting Maddy and she didn't text back and ugh in the mornings (one of the only times I get to see her) she spends the time talking to her other friend and ugh. Idek... I don't think I have friends who love me anymore .-. And then there was my family making fun of me, but I'm used to that by now.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I can't say much now because it's early and I'm dying of this cold, but basically I fck up everything. So yeah. I'd like to tell you more, I just don't have time now.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Holly can I talk to you? I know you wanted to take a break, but you're the only person right now who I want to talk to. I just need to vent before I go jump off a bridge or something stupid like that.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Fine. I changed my mind. If you want me to vent, then I’ll vent. Literally everything is stressing me the fck out right now. I’m trying so hard to bring my grade up in ABP, and all my parents do is yell at me to get it up more. Even when I’m working my hardest, I’m still the lazy good-for-nothing daughter who will be gone in three more years anyways. When I got cut from the lacrosse team, my dad told me I told you so. I have NO ONE to believe in me anymore. And before you start like, “Oh but you have color guard, right?” …no. It’s honestly stressing me out so much because it’s just one more place where my hardest efforts are never good enough. We do a fantastic performance only to get yelled at by our instructor, and it’s really starting to bother me. On top of all that, practically everyone on the guard hates me. I get made fun of by this one girl constantly for being a lesbian and I hate it. I have two more weeks of it after today, and then I’ll have nothing. Heck, I have nothing now, but the color guard is really the only thing I’m staying alive for right now. I’ve felt so many emotions over this past week, and a lot of them have been about you. I love you so incredibly much and I know that I’m needy but I can’t help it. Maddy is so sweet that I feel bad talking to her about this, and I hardly ever see Anna anymore. I can’t talk to anyone on guard and my band friends are driving me up a wall. Maya keeps making an effort to talk to me in gym and all I do is push her away. You’re the only one who understands me and who will listen and give good advice. But you said you can’t fix me, so I don’t even know why I’m bothering to do this. I really want to stop cutting, honestly. Last night was my fifth night in a row and I’m miserable. I just…I don’t know what you’re going to say, and I don’t know if I can rely on you to comfort me, but I love you and I never mean to hurt you. Just myself…
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Holly iloveyou. I had another .ty day and you just made it a whole lot better. I seriously wanted to cry because we came in second again and in case you couldn't tell, I'm tired of losing. But on the bright side (kind of I guess) my friend from guard who calls me her homeo noticed that my cuts were showing through my uniform (which is pretty see through) and gave me a pair of leggings. So maybe I am appreciated a little bit...
And I never want to take myself from you, and I want you to know that. I'm miserable now but I just have to suck it up and convince myself that things will get better. I'm not even going to go into all the issues that my depression is causing right now, but I just have to trust that things will get better. And um also Anna and I have planned a college road trip to University of Michigan, possibly in our junior year, so you may have less time to wait until we can see each other <3
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
You sound mad at me. Idk if I should...
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Okay how nice of you to ignore me baby. Thanks.
Sometimes I wonder if you ever felt like you were trying so hard to love me and getting nothing, because that's how I feel now. Goodnight.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
No it's not your fault, it's mine. It was my decision to try and be friends with Dani again, not yours. It was my decision to tell you and now I realize what a stupid decision it was. And sometimes it is your fault but not now. All I want is for you to be upfront about your feelings but I guess I can't get at least that. I try to be so honest with you and since our last relationship I've tried so fcking hard to be a better person. I've tried to ask you how you were and what was wrong every day and I get noghing in return. Is is that you can't trust me or what because I really would like to know.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Holly I don't even know what to say. I...ugh.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I thought you might suggest that...
And yeah it's a good idea. From now on, I'll have lacrosse from 2:20 to 5 every day and weekend competitions. I won't be on much anyways and yeah...
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
By the way, I know you're being sarcastic. Everything isn't good, at least not for me.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I may have never showed it but I do cherish you Holly. Every little thing about you. I honestly can't blame you if you go back to Teria or anyone else because I treated you like and you don't deserve that. As for me, I don't know. I don't know if I can find anyone else who compares to you. If I can, they sure aren't anywhere around here. I don't know if I can last without you. I've already broken my promise once as it is now and without you I don't know. I just want you to know if you self harm or take your life I will NEVER forgive myself. Ever. I spent all night crying and trying to figure out how the hell to fix this and at this point, I'm done. I hope you're happy...
Thanks, hopefully we'll win. I know I'll be performing for you.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Okay...
Good luck in everything you do baby. iloveyousomuch.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Realizing how pathetic this sounds now but oh well...

Holly, first and foremost I want you to know that hurting you isn't my intent in writing this. I've been texting Maddy for like twenty minutes trying to figure out what the fck to say because I'm afraid. I'm just incredibly afraid that what I'm going to say is going to hurt you, or that you'll be upset with me. I completely understand if you are because honestly, I know you baby girl. I know how easily you get jealous and that even if you don't show it, you're going to be impacted in some way by this. Basically, I want to be friends with Dani, and nothing more than that. I wasn't sure at first, but Maddy has become so close with her again that I regret ever being in a relationship with her. I've been talking to her in Algebra 2, and honestly I really do like her as a person. The way I like her just isn't romantically, and she feels the same way. I made a mistake asking her out, because I think some part of me knew that she was always a better friend than girlfriend. You will always be the best girlfriend I could ever ask for, and I hope that me having LGBTQcetera friends doesn't change that. To quote Let it Go, (I had to, okay?) the past is in the past and from now on, I don't want to worry about what happened five months ago. I want to focus on the future - OUR future. I just...iloveyou and I don't want to hurt you and I hope you can accept this but if not idk.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
You're mad now, aren't you baby?
I can't even say I'm sorry enough. I'm a fcking idiot, okay?
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby it's not fine. I just don't want you to be upset or jealous but I can't fix that, can I? I never could and even when I finally get to see you I probably won't be able to.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Okay...
Some part of me wishes that you would move on but I know that's never going to happen so yeah. By the way, she said you seem really rad and that if you come to prom, she'll accept your challenge. And may I ask...why do you hate her? Hate is just such a strong word and she never did anything to you...
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know sweetie. If she ever tries anything, my respect for her will be gone as well. And we've gone over this...as my girlfriend, she was there for me less than you could've been (which is really strange because she actually lives here but whatever). And honestly I couldn't hate her. She didn't dump me for another girl or anything. It was because she was incredibly stressed and not ready for another relationship. I couldn't balme her because sometimes, even with all the convinncing I did, I wasn't sure I could handle another one either.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby...iloveyou. And I still feel like you're mad. I can feel the sarcasm in that statement. I just want you to be completely honest with me, okay?
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I don't fcking want her like that. How many times do I have to tell you? I just want friendship, but I guess that's too much to ask for. Sorry.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
This video made me think of us baby. Hope ours are like them <3 http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=JG0yqhzVuYA
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
How are you doing my sweet girl?
I'm kind of in a bad mood...things took a turn for the worse with my grandpa and our color guard lost to our biggest rivals by literally twenty five thousandths of a point. I just want to know that you're okay, or have you take my mind off of things.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Aw sweetie I'm sorry...is there anything I can do?
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Only you baby XD
Fine I guess...I'm mad as heck though. Today is our ninth snow day, so no lacrosse tryouts. And ugh seriously.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
No it's fine. I really shouldn't be complaining, especially since I'm not the one who's sick.
By the way, this whole tumblr makes me think of us...hahaha like seriously. Just warning you it's a bit (okay a lot) not safe for work. Or anywhere. This is how I spent my snow day hehe(;
http://kinkylesbians.tumblr.com
Wait baby and I've been meaning to ask if you have a tumblr. Maddy has gotten me addicted and that's all I've been doing all day. And yeah my only followers are Maddy and...Dani .-.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Aw darn it.
So I'm mad. Another fcking snow day, so lacrosse tryouts are cancelled again and so is our only guard practice for the week. How are you doing baby?
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Awww sweetie that's terrible. Was everything okay at school?
You don't have to ask about me because I'm not too bad. We ended up getting pizza from my favorite place downtown (they put their pizza on pretzel dough...heaven.) and then I ate that and watched old episodes of Doctor Who. And now I'm home alone, tumblring and a bit bored. Also, I have something I want to talk to you about. It's just been bothering me for a while and I don't know if I want to do it on here or on Omegle.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I don't know...I don't want to tell you now. I just don't want you to be mad at me.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Give me like five minutes to collect my thoughts.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Okay so I almost got caught this morning and idk. Also, there's a possibility my nook might be taken. I have lax tryouts and a competition tomorrow l, so I won't be on a lot. I love you to bits baby girl though. I'm sorry for being cynical and depressed and stubborn and impatient and not on half the time. iloveyousomuch. Talk to you whenever I can get on...
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I don't want to take a break though...you keep me sane baby girl.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know...btw I'm home alone right now and in quite the kittyish mood. Care to go on Omegle again under purple hippos? Even if you're not in a mood I still just want to talk. I have thirty minutes.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Okay babe, I'm not sure how your day went, but in case you need cheering up, I found some adorable lesbian wedding and yeah. Enjoy :3

http://www.onabicyclebuiltfortwo.com/2012/11/wedding-felicity-alanna.html I really like the rings and the location in this one.
http://m.good.is/posts/celebrate-doma-defeat-deliciously-10-great-gay-friendly-wedding-cakes I vote for the cake with the flowers hahaha
http://media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/originals/b9/3e/16/b93e164c0aa183e084bbabe52a726615.jpg pretty please let's take a picture like this baby girl <3

I have a whole bunch more if you need more cheering up, but I figured this would at least get that beautiful smile out of you :3
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Aw darn I swear it worked when I tried it :/
So how was your day beautiful?
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Aww darling that doesn't sound good...I wish there was something else I could do for you. But you know I'm always here to talk and do whatever you need to relieve your stress. My family is going to a basketball party for my brother tonight so if you'd like to get on Omegle together, we can.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Okay I'm a horrible liar. My mom stayed home so I couldn't and gah I'm sorry sweetie.
And I would be your model anyday :3 I would help you study for the test too, but I'm not entirely sure what it's on hahaha.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
That's not good...
Is there anything I can do?
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I really don't know what to say but I know I feel the same way. Band kept it down and now all this guard drama is...ugh. And my lacrosse team gives me anxiety because they're all the preppy popular girls and yeah. I think I'm going to change my display name to something you'll like though :3
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Holly...iloveyou. Okay? Please always remember that, even if you can't remember anything else. ifckingloveyou.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I don't know...I wish we could change it.
So today I had to go get a physical so I can try out for lacrosse and I think the nurse saw my scars and no .-. I begged her not to tell my mom to refer me back to therapy.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Yeah I know...she didn't say anything about them and I was trying to hide them but ugh. But on the bright side, I just found out that Maddy and I are going to Hershey together this summer :3
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Yeah.
Aand I got yelled at by my dad for getting a C on my projectiles test. He's so mad and ugh. So how was your day baby? Sorry for being my rude self and not asking earlier .-.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Yeah I know my dad is an a hole.
That sounds like a good day baby...and it's good that you made a friend. Even if I want to be the only adorable freshman in your life :3
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
But if it helps, you will be the only girl loving nerd who will ever have the privledge to see me with my clothes off(;
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby I would never cheat on you.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I know sweetie...
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Okay <3
iloveyou.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
I hope you slept well and that you have an amazing day in school today sweetie...and break a leg on your Econ test :3
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Yeah well seeing as how yesterday went idk.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Awful. My grandpa is actually doing fine, but now they're holding him until the weekend and I'm scared because it's when my grandma was recovering that she started to slip...
And I almost passed out in gym because of anxiety. And I totally bombed my projectiles test in ABP.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Thank you darling...iloveyousomuchicantevenputitintowords.
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
How was your day sweet girl?
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
OMG DID YOU SEE MADDY'S QUOTE FOR US? Dead right now <3
Btw, she wants her and her future wife to be godparents for our kids. She is so supportive and gah she cheered me up so much(:
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Baby...
I don't know if you just don't want to talk, but something is wrong. Something is wrong with me, and with you and for once in my life, I don't know how to fix it and I hate it. I'm miserable and I don't know about you, but I'm starting to think it's me...
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
Okay <3
And I'm sorry too. Today was just a bad day for me as well. I had an anxiety attack in gym and didn't finish my physics test on time. My grandpa is also currently in the hospital for heart surgery so I'm really scared about that. That was how I lost my grandma...and I don't know. I was just kind of impulsive when I wrote that and I was depressed and idk.
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nevergrowup89 · 1 decade ago
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Jillian Marie* · 1 decade ago
So do I...
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