hi friends, long time no talk!! i really wanna start blogging on here again. i just feel like more than half of my followers are inactive haha!! if you see this, dont be afraid to say hi or something, i miss all of you!!
Its been a while since ive been really active on here. I was really feeling down tonight so i decided to come on here and just look at my old quotes. That led me to see my comments and im just still in shock. I just turned 13 when i made this account and im now 16, almost 17. I saw comments from girls explaining how much ive helped them or saved them. im forever grateful i was able to do that. I hope every single person who was struggling and asking me for advice years ago is in a much better place then they were 2 years ago. I know it sounds cheesy but if you were one of those girls or guys and you come across this quote,please comment on my profile or on this quote. i really wanna know how youre doing! I myself am still struggling with a few issues but im very happy that i got help for the issues i was battling 2 years ago. so much has happened since the last time ive been on here and im going to start coming on here more and im going to continue to try to help some of you out. Most of you who are reading this might not know me because like i said i was part of the old witty, but hi im kenzie and this account is made to help you all out. I hope every single one of you is better than the last time we talked. i love you all tons and im excited im back!
Out of the ashes, I’m burning like a fire. You can save your apologies, you’re nothing but a liar. I’ve got shame, I’ve got scars that I will never show. I’m a survivor in more ways than you know. ‘Cause all the pain and the truth, I wear like a battle wound. So ashamed, so confused, I’m not broken or bruised. ‘Cause now I’m a warrior. Now I’ve got thicker skin. I’m a warrior. I’m stronger than I’ve ever been and my armor, is made of steel, you can’t get in. I’m a warrior, and you can never hurt me.
Im pretty dang proud of how far ive come. I look back on how depressed i used to be, and i actrully smile. I look on my quotes and see how many people have told me "Youve saved me." "youve helped me." And thats why ive gotten through so much. Without you guys,idk where id be, and i just wanna thank you all so much. Ive been gone for a while. But i was dealing with alot, and im back. If any of you have comments, or any questions or anything, please talk to me here :) ask.fm/kenzielovato xo i love you guys.
There's so much i hold back.. How you guys always leave me fuc/ing out, How you treat me like sh//t, and think its ok. But some how i always crawl back to y'all A person can only take so fu//king much. Im done. Sincerly the girl who wont give in this time.
Alright,so i wanted to share something with y'all, a month or two ago, i was walking down the hallway of my school bawling my eyes out, i got bullied and stuff all day, and i couldnt do it anymore. I was walking so i could go to practice, and one of my teachers stopped and asked if i was okay. i kinda just like kept walking trying to hide my face and was like yup, she obviously knew something was up, so i kept walking and i saw my friend ran into her arms and was bawling my eyes out. The teacher saw me again and was like "Hum come into my room. I was embarressed and yup, but she like talked to me about whats going on and she was telling me it wasnt okay, and she'll report them, and how shes always here and stuff, i know it may not seem like much, but i just wanted to make an apprecation quote because honestly, she gives me so much hope.
READ THIS. One cut two three cut four. No ones knocking at your bedroom door. Five cut six cut seven. The clock strikes eleven Eight cuts nine ten to eleven Will your decision take you to heaven? twelve cuts thirteen. That’s all you were. A teen. To two amazing parents that do care about you. They just don’t know what to do or how to help. They just don’t know that your ill. Fourteen fifteen time to be killed. Take that knife take those pills. Its fine isn’t it? This is what you want right? You drop to the floor, your neck don’t break? Your struggling to breathe. Or to stop the bleeding. You suddenly want to live right? You have your note to your left. Sitting on your desk. Your brother and your sister. Your parents flash into your mind. You can’t leave them. They need you right? Too late. You take your final breath. Your eyes close. You stop moving. Your gone. There is no going back. Morning comes. You have school this morning. The last day of the school year. You almost survived the year of beatings and name callings. Of sitting alone in the bathroom with your lunch. Of silence, a year of silence. You didn’t ever talk to ANYONE. You almost survived it. Almost. You lie on the cold floor as your mother comes in to wake you. Shes astounded by the sight. Could you blame her? Her child’s gone. Her baby. Taken from her. Why? She don’t know. Her eyes fill with tears and they fall from her. She collapses to the floor and pulls your cold corpse to her. She can’t believe it. She doesn’t want to. She shouts for your father. He comes running in to see you in your mothers arms. Not breathing, not moving, nothing. All he sees is his princess or his number one son’s body. Lifeless. Your siblings don’t know whats going on! Too young to understand. All they know is your gone. And your not coming back. Your mother stops crying and calls the school. Tells them everything. They say there apologies and they tell your teachers. They break it to the school. They can’t believe it. They all have one memory when they hurt you some how some way. Now they regret it. Those friends that left you? That turned against you? They are crying now. Everyone is. They all are crying. No one knows. No one has read your suicide note. Its been forgotten, lost thrown somewhere. No one wants to know why your gone. Suicide? I know its on your mind. I know you want to do die. Being bullied, or hurt in anyway, its not fun. But hang on, things can change, for the better or for the worse. But I know you got this. You got to hang on and you will be fine. Message me, ask me. Talk to me I can help you! I’ve been through A LOT! From such a young age. Please, if you are looking for a sign not to kill your self, this is it. Take it, embrace it, talk to me. I’m looking for a sign too. Tell me all your feelings, tell me anything you want to say. Looking for a friend? Here I am. Looking for someone to tell your day about, how much you hurt to let things out? Here I am. I care. Please talk to me. I’m always glad to talk. some of this is mine, but i got some parts on tumblr :)
so today is self harm awarness day! i wanted to make a quote to you guys letting you all know how proud i am of ya'll! your story is just the begining. i beileve in you, and im always here for you! Keep Fighting and stay strong!