If You Really Knew Me..
you would know that im only fifteen and battle with drug addiction. For the last year ive used cocaine, extasy, mdma and marijuana to try and just not feel anything, it didnt work. for 2 and a half weeks i stayed up every night in my bedroom doing coke. i slowed down and now i cant go a weekend without getting drunk and high. I wanna stop more than anything, but i just cant control it anymore
If You Really Knew Me..
you would know that i used to cut myself anytime i got too much of any emotion (sadness, anger, even if i was too happy i just didnt know what to do) I did think for a while but then my mom saw the scars on my wrist, she sent me to counseling which didnt help at all and i just started doing it on my thighs cause it was easier to hide. Some days all that would keep me going was the knowledge i had razors at home waiting.
If You Really Knew Me..
you would know that i have no relationship with my father, he has been an alcoholic all my life and theres has been many times weve gone with words cause of it, even up to 11 months without even a happy birthday or merry christmas, I hate him and dont even know if i would be sad if he died
If You Really Knew Me..
you would know that i hate being in my house. I do anything i can to not be here, My step dads presence alone can put me in a horrible mood, and the way he treats my mom is ridiculous. My boyfriends helps and lets me stay at his house as much as my mom will let me, but i just wanna move out. I hate being here
If You Really Knew Me..
You would know that i am never happy, I hate myself and everything about me, my body, my personality, I feel like i have no friends when some would consider me popular. I spend my lunch hour in the bathroom alone half the time. I cry myself to sleep every night and sometimes at random parts of the day i burst into tears for no particular reason.
FAVOURITE THIS IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING IN COMMON WITH ME.
I NEED TO KNOW IM NOT ALONE.
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