So today on the bus,
I was listening to this song that brought back memories from when i wanted to kill myself. With hearing the song i started crying. I stopped the song and took my headphones out to get off. I heard one of the guys on my bus making fun of me i turned around and this is how the conversation went...
Me: What the f.uck are you making fun of me for?!?! You don't even know why i was f.ucking crying. Who the F.uck do you think you are to judge somebody for the pain they have went through!?! What is so funny about someone wanting to kill themselves???
Him: It's kinda funny.
Me: NO IT F.UCKING ISN'T!!! SOMEONE DIES EVERY 40 SECONDS BECAUSE OF SUICIDE IT'S NOTHING TO JOKE ABOUT!!!
Him: Actually it kinda is.
Me: SAY THAT AGAIN I F.UCKING DARE YOU!!!! WATCH HOW FUNNY IT WILL BE WHEN IT'S SOMEONE YOU PRACTICULLY TOLD TO KILL HERSELF!!!
Everybody else was dead silent, we were in the middle of the hallways, this boy who is a junior was standing behind me, he asked me why i wanted to kill myself. My answer was,
Me: Because of A$$holes like him, who make people feel worthless for not being like everyone else.
Him: But why didn't you confront them?
Me: Becuase, When the pain is this bad, you just want to keep it to yourself. Nobody else wold understand.
Tanner (that's his name) Then lifted his sleeve to reveal cuts on his wrist.
Him: Trust me i know what it's like to have nobody.
At this point, i was pretty much balling, right in his arms.
The kid who made fun of me then proceded to make fun of us. now this kid was kind of taller than me. I told him to come down to my level. When he finally did, i looked him dead in the eyes took a step back, and Punched Him. He ended up having to stay in the nurses office all day. I got a Detention, Tanner later asked me why i stood up for him, i said.
Me: I did that becuase nobody has the right to make fun of what they have never felt. Nobody has felt the pain we have, and until he does he has no right to talk to me, you or anybody else like that.
Him: Thank you, It really means alot to me. Nobody has ever done that for me.
Me: Don't mention it, and if you ever need someone to talk to i am always hear.
Then, He
KISSED ME!!!
I looked Him dead in the eyes and wondered.
Me: Why did you kiss me?
Him: Everyone needs someone special in their life. I think you could be mine.
I am still freaking smiling!!!!!!