Deuce: "Okay, don't panic. There's a way out of this. Go to the bus station; there's a key taped underneath the soda machine. It opens locker 6774B. Inside that locker you'll find a fake passport and 400 pesos. Make your way to Costa Rica and find my cousin ZuZu. He'll get you a job as an apprentice in a whicker furniture factory. From this moment forward, your name is Carlos Esponanza. Good luck."
so my mom said he could sound exactly like someone in our generation. this was what she said. vvvv "swag . swaggie swag swaag, let's get starbucks. no omg, let's get our UGGS on and go to the gym to twerk out. we can takes selfies!" i think i just died omg pres goes to sassygothgirl2 [hover over for credit tag]
♥ sometimes it's just not going to work ♥ why? because i was left with nothing as you were gone. you left this earth & i lost myself. you're my brother and i feel so drained that you're gone. you're dead. i'm lost. what do i do without you? how do i carry on? all the times we had together, going to the carnival and going on those huge swings that shot us up past the trees, even in the rain and we were all laughing. we went to the bumper cars and you said "what if i just sat here and didn't move" to get bumped all over the place and annoy all the other drivers. i remember we would play PS3 together and watch all the dancing videos to dubstep music on youtube. we would watch movies and mess around with gabe. we went to menasha with ann & when her mom died you were an angel. you always helped her even though i wasn't there, stupid custody. i wish i was. now that you're gone i need someone like that. but you're gone. i need the help ann needed, which you gave her. all i can think now besides the good times is the way i found you. my dad was screaming and crying and i ran in there and seen it. i seen you. lying there in bed, purple lips,eyes closed, cold, pale, terrible..my dad tried moving you and you were totally stiff and heavy as we dialed for help. i fell to the floor in tears and instantly i was hoping there was some way you could come back. you can't leave! you're an amazing brother but they said there was no way. and when i found out why that happened, it crushed me. i never thought this would happen. why? why did it happen like this? anytime i am close to someone, i'm bad luck. i feel like it's my fault when i didn't cause it. but you know, my best friend passed away, my grandpa, and so many more, terrible things happen to amazing people that i love. i turned terrible & i'm lost. i cry so much now but i can cry in silence since i'm too hurt to make a sound. i don't want anybody to see me cry. they won't understand. they never will. losing a brother is losing yourself. if you cut they misunderstand you. if you don't eat because you can't get out of bed from the depression, they judge you. i always get judged by everything. do you think i like it this way? i slashed the sides of my stomach with a knife until i got caught. i thought of dying in any way i could and just i don't want to be here without you. r.i.p. devin i miss you with my whole soul. i feel so heartless because it's either i have no emotion or every single emotion coming at me at once. i love you so fkking much. i miss you.
When I was younger I would be like "Look, mommy, I'm drinking your beer!" she would laugh and think it's silly since it was only my rootbeer. I tried that trick this year, yeah, she just started yelling at me until she realized it was once again , rootbeer...
"You seem quite nice for a girl with good looks, and I'm the kinda fellow that'll make you feel better when your life gets shook, so give it a chance.. according to your plans. I bet I'm not number one on your list to kiss, but please understand" "You seem quite shy but you're oh so cute, and I'm the kind of girl that would love to be yours if you would ask me to. So, just take a chance, try to hold my hand, I swear I'd never let go just let me know if you'd be my man" I really want to come out and tell you.. Oh darling, I love you so If you'd ask me for my heart there's no way that I'll say no ♡
I'm not good at poems but I can tell you this.. You mean the world to me, I would never trade you for anybody else. You make me happy & I wish I could always do the same for you.. when we have our jokes or funny conversations it makes me laugh hysterically that other people near me laugh at my laughing. I love learning the little things about you, even its just that your favorite cereal is Honey Combs. I love talking to you, being with you, and I need you to know I love you. When I say that, I mean it. (: