please read, i love you all ♥
i know what it's like. I know it quite well, actually.
you like him for so long, then WHAM. the best thing happens to you;
he likes you, and you start to fall into a deeper love for him, because FINALLY, after all this time, you get what you wished for.
you ask God what you did to deserve something as wonderful as him in your life.
you have your first kiss, and you're left starry-eyed for days after.
you date, and it feels like you are in a dream the entire time.
you constantly ask yourself if it's really real.
you're parents, friends, teachers, co-workers, just can't figure out why you're so happy.. you smile all the time, and he's the reason.
you say you like him a lot, he replies with the same thing, and how he is falling for you very quickly... this makes your heart beat so fast, knowing that you're heart actually belongs to someone.
then one day, it changes. he loses the glimmer in his eyes when he kisses you.
he loses interest when talking to you.
you realize you may not be the number 1 in his life anymore, that there is the possibility of him being with someone else... but you don't want to seem needy and insane, you just go with the flow because after all, he said he really likes you, and is falling hard for you, so why don't you just believe him already, right?
wrong. when you realize there is another girl, it hurts. and it hurts BAD.
you are in shock for awhile, and maybe a little angry at him.
how could he do this to you?
was it a lie the entire time?
you stay off witty for a few days, because you hate seeing all those quotes about new boyfriends, and you still rememeber what that first kiss was like.
you tell your friends you're mad at him, but inside you're dying.. everything you wanted for so long and got, is gone. it's completely out of your reach, and you feel alone.
you seem him around, and you act like you're not hurting- because you think that's gonna make him realize how strong and independent you are, and make him like you all over again.
in reality, no. he likes another girl, he's with another girl now, he's over you.
you learn that you just have to pick up your life again, and keep going.
he's just a boy. yes, a selfish boy who dropped you instead of catching you.
but YOU'RE the strong one.
YOU'RE the one who got through this tough situation.
one day he is going to break up with his new girl, and REALIZE what you would've done for him...
he will realize that when YOU are with another guy... not to make him jealous, but because you are trusting guys again, and you know you deserve 1000000 times better than the guy who broke your heart.