I hate seeing him in the hallways at school .. I hate making eye contact with him. He turned into everything I thought he'd never be. And nobody knows this , But I miss him .. I want my ex-boyfriend back ..
I thought you'd chase after me . I thought you said we were just taking a break . I didnt know we were officially over . I thought when you said you loved me , you meant it . Guess everything was just a complete lie .
I want someone to love . And by that I dont mean I just want to hug and kiss you cause I like it . I want to be yours . Be your girl . I want to be able to have someone to go for anything and everything . To have somoene care when the rest of the world doesn't . To have somebody understand me , even when I cant understand myself . I want someone I can be myself around , and even if I change , And Im not myself , When Im with them , Im comofortable enough to be myself . I wanna be able to call him at 3 in the morning just to say I love him , or talk about whats on my mind . I wanna skip school with him just so we can stay home together and cuddle . I want someone that will always say sorry if we fight . Even if most of it is my fault , or I brought up the fight . I want someone who wont talk to other girls . And if he does , there just friends . I want him to just be mine , no one elses . I wanna have our own little world . Where we are completely ourselves around each other . A couple no one understands how we can make it this long . But it's the love we have . And because of that , were together . I want a serious relationship . I really do . And I am really ready for one .. ♥
Dont ever let someone bring you down . You keep your head up , and you smile . If people wanna walk out on you in your life , let them . People would kill to see you not happy . You show them you're strong . Cause you are . You're more beautiful , popular , and stronger then they'll ever be . You can do this .
I opened up my agenda for school today . And I saw that there was a heart on Friday . I was wondering why I put it there . And then I noticed the date . And I realized that it would be me & his one month . I erased the heart , & smiled . I dont need him .
Dont ever give him the satisfaction of knowing your not okay without him , your not happy , and you want him back . Dont ever let him know you are there waiting for him . You keep your head up , You smile that gorgeous smile of yours , & make it through the day . And I swear , He'll want you back.
I just ain't happy. I used to be all happy and smiley all the time. I would laugh non stop. And nothing ever bothered me. Like he didn't Bother me when he did all that crap to me. I was emotionless. And now all the feelings are just creeping up on me.
Grandpa, your in Heaven. But I just wanted to say, I hope you have a amazing Father's day. I love you with all my heart. Thanks for teaching my daddy all the things he knows now. Cause without you, I wouldn't have a good daddy. I miss you. And I love you. I'll come visit your grave soon. Love, Olivia.