You know, I came back on Witty today after being off for about a week or two. As I scrolled through the "Quotes by People You Follow" page, I got this weird sense of deja vu. I couldn't pin it. Then it hit me. The words are colorful again. People are making original quotes again. Witty is coming back to life.
I hate that raw, insane pain. Its like nail polish. Before the polish can harden the same way I wish my heart would, anything you do can mess it up, so after I've finished having an anxiety attack, just a song can make me burst into tears until the next day where I'm back to perfect Barbie doll me. It's a bit inconvenient.
I am totally done with sparing feelings, tbh. YES. I AM AGAINST HOMOSEXUALS. But I will say this a million times, I DO NOT HATE HOMOSEXUALS. Example: My oldest sister is lesbian. I love her, her girlfriend is awesome, but if they are ever to get married I will not go. Not because they do not have the right, but because in mine and my God's eyes, it is an abomination. Yes, I was devastated when I found out she was gay. But she is my sister, and my friend is my friend, and my math teacher is my math teacher, and children of God spread love. So all I will do, instead of rioting and screaming and suing, I will pray for them. That God will forgive them, because I have my bad things too, and I'd hope my friends and family would pray for my forgiveness.
I want to find something. Bigger, better, amazing. I want to tell the stories to my kids, not that I just graduated high school, college, got married, and then the end. I want a novel. I want a story that can make you laugh and cry and want to hug someone yet punch someone because, although I deserved it, I didn't get what I wanted. I want someone to be inspired by the things I do, I want someone to ask for my help but to be able to help me in return. I want love, not us trying to make it work for both of our sakes, but for us to not need to try to make each other happy. I want tears of joy on my wedding day and I want closure. I want devotion, I want stability. I want happiness.
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I'm tired of fighting. I can't hold on any longer. But I get nauseated everytime I glance at that cupboard of pills thinking maybe, just maybe, I can get through this. But then the thoughts come back and I realize that it's bipolarity thats putting my life in danger. Because when I'm in a depressed mood, I'm ready to take the pills. But as soon as my mood changes, my mind does too.