its been 16 days without you grandma... and I dont know about everyone else, but I dont think ive been the same without you. the day you went into the hospital and were diagnosed with dementia, i didnt know what to think. when you went into the nursing home, i still had butterflies about it all, and got used to it all soon after. but you weren't the same. i still, and always did, love you though. when you came home from the nursing home and needed around the clock aid services, i still knew things weren't right.. but things did get slightly better. and there you were, just a flower in the sunshine, sitting at home with your family around and with you; for about a year, living life as you wished.. until you had a second stroke. that day, i will never forget. after school, walking past your house, im so thankful i visited you before everything went down. i wouldnt have been able to handle seeing you suffer right before my eyes. when my parents got the call. saying you stopped responding. i panicked. my heart melted with pain. it still does, with all of the memories playing back in my head. as i walked down the street in the cold, i started crying. then, you were rushed to the hospital. and i knew things could only get worse. i sat in on a family meeting at the hospital, intended for the adults, and overheard too much. i broke down right in the meeting room, infront of everyone at the sound of the doctor saying you had only a few weeks to live, do to a bubble on your heart. i really dont know where im going with this story, but at your funeral, all i had to say to myself, was that you looked beautiful. and you always have. and this christmas, your sister gave me a guardian angel that you were planning on giving me. it sits next to my stuffed bunny, rose, on my shelf above my bed. and it always will. all im really trying to say, grandma, is that i love you, and still feel empty without you here. say hi to grandpa in heaven for me. i miss you...
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