There is a lady all in white, Holds me and sings a lullaby, She's nice to see and she's soft to touch, She says, "Cosette, I love you very much." - Les Miserables
F*CKING F*CK MY ACTUAL LIFE. I only got a 1990 on my SAT. I wanted at least a 2100 or a 2200. AND I GOT A F*CKING 610 ON THE MATH PART. That's pathetic! AND THE MINIMUM MATH SCORE FOR THE SCHOOLS I WANT TO APPLY TO IS A 650. I don't know my trig grade right now but it's been high to mid-90s all year. I should've gotten a much higher score. I'm so angry with myself. All I want to do right now is cry and scream. I want to die. MY ENTIRE PLAN IS F*CKED. BYE BYE PHARMACY SCHOOL. And a 680 and a 700 in writing and critical reading? That could've been a lot higher too. This f*cking sucks. I'm taking the ACT in two weeks and I'll be able to re-take either the SAT or the ACT again in September, but still. As of now, I have absolutely no cusion nor any confidence. I feel like someone stabbed me in the chest and twisted the knife. School and my grades are what precede me in every situation. People know me as "either the salutatorian or valedictorian of the class." A 1990 overall and a 610 in math is unacceptable for my personal standards. Pharmacy school has been my goal for years, and now I'm terrified it won't happen. This is going to haunt me. This is going to tear me to shreds internally. Everything is f*cking falling apart.