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  1. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    May 25, 2016 11:28am UTC
    My life is authum
    My life is fall
    ing and it's waking up uncertain
    of what weather it will be that day
    my life is fall
    ing and the wind is strong
    er than my spine
    my life is fall
    ing and I'm scared
    of the winther that will come
    my life is fall
    ing and the leave
    s are changing
    me

  2. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    May 25, 2016 10:21am UTC
    your body, your mouth, your heart,
    made specifically for loving.
    sometimes the things we love, will kill us,
    but weren’t we dying anyway?
    -warsan shire
    A love letter to myself
    Do not kill yourself
    because you're dying anyway
    there is no reason to speed up that proces
    and the world is a better place
    with you
    Yes I know, I remember
    all the times you broke your own heart
    over things and people
    who may or may not care
    how much you hurt
    I know that sometimes you
    want to lie down and
    blame yourself for all the pain
    you're not wrong but you're not helping
    get the tea, get a bath, forgive
    and maybe one day you won't
    make those mistakes again
    and maybe you do but learn to fall
    but first let's focus
    on getting back on your feet

  3. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    May 23, 2016 9:44am UTC
    he tells you
    you have a hole
    that needs filling
    he tells you that it won't hurt to much
    and will sedate you
    before he starts
    drilling in the hole in your
    tooth
    he makes it bigger
    gets a good look
    says everything will be fine
    and then covers the whole up
    again
    like it's still your same old
    tooth
    like you're still completely
    yourself
    he tells you it will hurt for a few days
    but everything will be better
    and reminds you to
    brush your teeth
    so they can be pretty
    when you dare to expose them
    again

  4. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    May 23, 2016 8:31am UTC
    Falling in love with you was a kind of melting, and
    falling out of love with you wasn’t at all like rebuilding
    ice cubes out of fog, but rather
    evaporation, condensation, and then the rain
    once more.
    My heartbeat keeps me awake at night
    and I don’t understand what language it speaks in so
    I put a stethoscope over my chest and plug
    it into my laptop,
    but Google Translate
    still hasn’t found how to translate water into words,
    or an ocean into a novel
    about the back of a whale’s throat.
    The heart
    is never as simple as a one-liner.
    The heart
    is a burning shipwreck under four thousand layers of sea.
    What I’ve come here to do tonight is this —
    salvage what I can from the wreckage
    so that I can rise again, like a phoenix, into my own
    skin.
    I touch you and my heart undergoes the water cycle.
    Evaporation and condensation, and then
    always,
    this rain.

  5. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    May 23, 2016 7:07am UTC
    I don't want you to clip my wings
    again
    but I don't want to end up alone
    again
    And he is a really smart man
    and handsome too
    so why would I end up
    again
    with a guy like you?
    Because I'm a silly girl
    and we go for what we think
    we deservve
    and with a self esteem like mine
    I should pick you all the time
    but
    I've flown away with him once
    and he said he loved the way my wings
    reflext the sun
    as if they where not all black
    as if I belonged in that sky
    and there I tought
    I really want to make him mine

  6. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    May 11, 2016 4:41pm UTC
    it's all on the outside
    it's scooped out
    like a tap on my pinky toe
    that keeps leeking
    or a wound in my chest
    that won't stop bleeding
    I keep trying to put the things back
    where they belong
    hug friends that are no longer friends
    kiss lovers that are no longer lovers
    watch and rewatch and read and reread
    hold and rehold
    never let go, never let go
    of me
    I ask people to never let go of me
    because I'm not keeping myself together
    I ask them to stay
    so they can rememeber what I look like
    when I forget my own face again
    I'm hollowed out
    like a gutted fish
    it's no wonder that I don't even know
    if I still have a reflection

  7. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    May 5, 2016 2:53pm UTC
    I always write when they have left
    because then the story is over
    because then I can tell it
    so you got lucky
    I got the diseases you cursed to me
    you got the misery you wanted to create
    and I have no foul taste in my mouth
    when I call your name
    and named someone else my treasure
    things turned around
    and we never hated each other
    but it was no love

  8. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    May 2, 2016 7:28am UTC
    And yet again
    I write about the boys
    that came back
    the ones that proclamed
    themselves men
    then left
    and came back
    like the ocean
    I love the ocean
    It brings me back
    to the times that I
    was still a child
    still playing
    but I'm losing
    sight of the shore
    have I been here before?
    I'm leaving the beach now
    can't ask the tiny rocks
    that crumble under my feet
    to support me anymore
    it is hard to stop
    loving the ocean
    but I have to carry
    my own weight
    somehow

  9. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    April 18, 2016 5:50am UTC
    my morning ritual
    go to the toilet
    remove all clothing
    if I posible remore skin hair eyes or limbs
    weigh myself
    hate myself
    look in the mirror
    brush teeth
    comb your hair
    aply creme
    hate myself
    take the asma medication
    take the anti anxiety meds
    take the antidipressants
    take the allegry meds
    eat something to lessen the side effects
    hate myself
    put on the underwear
    and the pants and the bra and the top and
    and the smile
    put on the smile
    but still
    hate myself

  10. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    April 16, 2016 10:36am UTC
    It's been a while
    but I found a home
    there's a shower and stove
    and a bed that fits only one
    I will deal with the mold
    I wil deal with the rodents
    To be honest I brought them here
    Because I was too scared of being alone
    but it's mine now
    I've made my descision to stay
    The only thing I shouldn't do
    is wander out the door
    again

  11. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    April 11, 2016 11:22am UTC
    When I am sad
    my mother sends me apples
    my friends send me booze
    I'm hangover in somebody's bed
    my mother toldme to keep hydrated
    I'm clenching my thirst in the wrong wells
    the answer is right there
    but I'm not ready yet to accept that mistakes
    are sometimes only that
    I am sorry, I am
    for my mom, for not listening
    for myself, for not being smart
    I'll keep passing up the apples
    and I take beer over water
    but when I lie in the gutter
    I still know the answer
    It's right there

  12. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    March 7, 2015 10:17am UTC
    If I'd write people into orans
    you would be my breasts
    I complain about them all the time
    they make things more complicated
    and I've threatened to get them removed
    more than I've ment it
    if I'd write people into animals
    you'd be a kitten
    I'd climb threes to get you out
    you'd get in all the wrong places
    and I'd still buy gifts
    make sure you don't go to the neighbours
    if I'd write people into emotions
    you'd be depression
    a desructive compagnion
    people keep telling me to just leave
    but it feels like all I've got
    and all I deserve

  13. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    March 5, 2015 9:23am UTC
    i hide my cowardice
    with compassion and say
    ‘i’m just being kind,
    you could be with a normal girl
    with a quiet laugh
    who reads magazine like scripture
    and lives down your street’.

  14. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    March 5, 2015 9:18am UTC
    We emotionally manipulated one another
    until we thought it was love.

  15. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    December 25, 2014 9:13pm UTC
    So see, that explains everything. We’re not together anymore because of the multiverse.
    Well, isn’t that comforting?
    If you’re sad, do like I do and just think of the other ‘verses. The ones where I believe in love and where I don’t hate myself and where I never feel the need to kamikaze relationships. A universe where we can have nice things. It’s helpful, right?
    Because you could have loved me forever. And maybe in another universe, I let you.

  16. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    December 25, 2014 9:01pm UTC
    “You and I may have different definitions of a good day.
    I remembered to buy eggs.
    My mother is proud of me.
    It is not the kind of pride she brags about at the golf course.
    She doesn’t combat topics like, ”My daughter got into Yale”
    with, ”Oh yeah, my daughter remembered to buy eggs”
    But she is proud.
    See, she remembers what came before this.
    The weeks where I forgot how to use my muscles,
    how I would stay as silent as a thick fog for weeks.
    She thought each phone call from an unknown number was the notice of my suicide.
    These were the bad days.
    My life was a gift that I wanted to return.
    My head was a house of leaking faucets and burnt-out lightbulbs.
    Depression, is a good lover.
    So attentive; has this innate way of making everything about you.
    And it is easy to forget that your bedroom is not the world,
    That the dark shadows your pain casts is not mood-lighting.
    It is easier to stay in this abusive relationship than fix the problems it has created.
    Today, I slept in until 10,
    cleaned every dish I own,
    fought with the bank,
    took care of paperwork.
    You and I might have different definitions of adulthood.
    I don’t work for salary, I didn’t graduate from college,
    but I don’t speak for others anymore,
    and I don’t regret anything I can’t genuinely apologize for.
    And my mother is proud of me.
    I burned down a house of depression,
    I painted over murals of greyscale,
    and it was hard to rewrite my life into one I wanted to live
    But today, I want to live.
    I didn’t salivate over sharp knives,
    or envy the boy who tossed himself off the Brooklyn bridge.
    I just cleaned my bathroom,
    did the laundry,
    called my brother.
    Told him, “it was a good day.”

  17. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    October 18, 2014 4:38pm UTC
    if they hate all life
    and look in your direction
    do not yell or point
    to another and say
    they've got a heatbeat
    take them! take them!
    if they're after you
    because of you are breathing
    hold your breath when they pass by
    but never forget
    how the air flows in your lungs
    if they keep you prisonner
    because of your ideas
    remember it's better to die living
    then to live in death

  18. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    October 15, 2014 7:28am UTC
    i tried to love
    the hell
    out of him
    thinking that my light
    could ever
    ignite his
    was the dumbest
    and bravest
    thing i’ve ever done

  19. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    October 12, 2014 7:30am UTC
    the best often die by their own hand
    just to get away,
    and those left behind
    can never quite understand
    why anybody
    would ever want to
    get away
    from
    them

  20. justkiddiing justkiddiing
    posted a quote
    October 12, 2014 7:28am UTC
    the women break
    vases against the walls
    and the men drink too
    much
    and nobody finds the
    one
    but keep
    looking
    crawling in and out
    of beds.
    nobody ever finds
    the one.
    the city dumps fill
    the junkyards fill
    the madhouses fill
    the hospitals fill
    the graveyards fill
    nothing else
    fills.

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