it's wierd; I have found a boy who make's me feel _____+ perfect all the time he makes me feel like a princess. i have the best friend who's alwyas there* i have everything i've ever wanted. but i still have times when i feel empty and alone i guess it's the fact that my parents aren't together. that my daddy didn't fight to keep me. t h a t h e d i d n ' t w a n t m e ; + maybe it's because i never feel like i can please my mum + i guess i'm just not perfect.
i t ' s t h e s a m e s t o r y d a y a f t e r d a y //♥ i wake up in the morning, with you on my mind and try to get ready, wondering if you'll think i look pretty or not. i put on my makeup hoping it'll cover up the ugly face, that you used to call beautiful. i brush that hair that you used to run your fingers through and close those eyes that made you speechless. i put on my uniform, making sure it looks perfect for you. i brush my teeth until they sparkle for you. i make sure i look as good as i ever will just for you. i walk to school, thinking of what to say to you when i see you. thinking of that hug i get from you everyday that makes me feel so alive. i think about that moment where you see me and smile that brilliant smile, just for me. i think of the feeling i get whenever i see you. i think of all the memories we've had together. the way you held me, kissed me, said my name. it's irreplaceable. nothing can ever change my feelings for you. but then i remember all the pain and misery we went through. the arguments and tears. the fright and horror. the kicking and screaming. but i still glue on that smile and make my way over to you, as you spin around and i see that smile, knowing you'll never be mine again. knowing that today is the very last day i'll live without you //
every morning when i get out of bed all i can think is* how ugly i am `*__________and how i'll never be good enough. you tell me i was too good f o r y o u but i think we both know, that's bullshit. the way you would hold me, kiss me, say my name. i t s - i r r e p l a c e a b l e. notmyfade.
as a tear runs down her cheek she finally says it, ( i give up ) . that boy has taken everything away from her. she can't smile without the heartbreak. she can't focus without the distraction. he took her life away, but in a way t h e _ p a i n _ m a k e s_ i t_r e al . his hoodie, is always on, and he never leaves her mind. this girl? she loves that kid. but he turned away and now she just doesn't , see the light anymore.
i've seen quotes saying '' goodbye's not the hard part, it's never saying hello again that hurts like hell '' but then i think to myself, every night w h e n w e s a y g o o d n i g h t >> ..it kills me.. << (( xx as i know we'll never be together again xx )) notmyfade.
every day i wake up wondering why that girl sits alone every single day why no one bother's to talk to her. every day i want to go over to her. and just be her friend. but then everyday i stop myself in my own selfish tracks. wondering what everyone will say about me. and i wish to god that i could make her smile. she's all alone with no friends. i could change that, but i'm just to selfish. not true. fade not mine. just thought it might be inspirational.