i t ' s t h e s a m e s t o r y d a y a f t e r d a y //♥
i wake up in the morning, with you on my mind and try to get ready, wondering
if you'll think i look pretty or not. i put on my makeup hoping it'll cover up the
ugly face, that you used to call beautiful. i brush that hair that you used to run
your fingers through and close those eyes that made you speechless. i put on
my uniform, making sure it looks perfect for you. i brush my teeth until they
sparkle for you. i make sure i look as good as i ever will just for you. i walk to
school, thinking of what to say to you when i see you. thinking of that hug i get
from you everyday that makes me feel so alive. i think about that moment where
you see me and smile that brilliant smile, just for me. i think of the feeling i get
whenever i see you. i think of all the memories we've had together. the way you
held me, kissed me, said my name. it's irreplaceable. nothing can ever change my
feelings for you. but then i remember all the pain and misery we went through.
the arguments and tears. the fright and horror. the kicking and screaming.
but i still glue on that smile and make my way over to you, as you spin around
and i see that smile, knowing you'll never be mine again. knowing that
today is the very last day i'll live without you //