Hey I'm Jillian and I'm 17(:
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People deserve to love who they want to love. If they can't what will this world come to? It causes no harm to anyone. In fact, it causes the opposite of harm, which is love. Everyone should be able to marry who they love. It doesn't make sense to set laws against people's own right in a free country.
Do you ever just sit there and think about life? All the beautiful things and people you over look daily, just because it's a familiar sight? And when you're driving and you've seen it all before, do you ever just stop and thank God for what he's given you? Do you ever look in the mirror, and rather than judging your body, look into your eyes and ask yourself: "who am I?" I do all of these things quite frequently. I know that life can come at any second, and it can leave just as quickly. Life doesn't stop for anyone. So while you're here in this beautiful, materialistic world, try and take even a few minutes to appreciate what's around you, what you have, and who you are.
"take your time and wait; find your patience, find your purpose, find your someone, find your way back. take the time to learn; find the message, find the meaning, find the feeling, find the reason why"
You wanna know something that makes me sick? It takes someone to be famous for people to listen to their words. If they're famous, they don't have to be attractive because their words make them beautiful. Yet you see people every day; at school, work, on the streets and you think to yourself: she/he is ugly or weird or fat, and you don't even give them a chance to speak, when what they're saying could be even more beautiful than others. And some people are famous just on their beauty alone. They're not good role models. They're not even good people. They'd rather do drugs and party and sing about it than do something inspiring. It's just sickening that you have to be good looking to be heard, instead of vise versa.
The worst type of crying is the silent one. The one when everyone else is asleep. The one where you feel it in your throat, and your eyes become blurry from the tears. The one where you just want to scream. The one where you hold your breath and grab your stomach to keep quiet. The one where you can’t breathe anymore. The one where you realize that the person that meant the most to you, is gone.
“Grief is forever. It doesn’t go away; it becomes a part of you, step for step, breath for breath. I will never stop grieving him, because I will never stop loving him. That’s just how it is. Grief and love are conjoined, you don’t get one without the other. All I can do is love him, and love the world, emulate him by living with daring and spirit and joy" I miss you so much, Grampy. I can't believe it's been 16 years. I hope that I'm making you proud, and I know that you are watching over me every minute of every day. I wish I could talk to you, right now, and hear your voice again. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I love you, and I hope you're enjoying paradise.
Okay so I just need to make a point about something. I've had A LOT of stupid rumors made about me, people making fun of me, etc. People I thought were my friends, even. You never know when a person's breaking point is. You never know what's going on at home, or why they do what they do, or feel what they feel. So maybe you shouldn't be so quick to judge someone who you don't even know. Because I tell you what right now, very few people know me or the other people they're harassing. Think twice before you harass someone because everyone has their breaking point, and I'm just lucky I haven't reached mine yet. That being said, I am here for anyone who needs someone to talk to. I know what it feels like to be on the other end of the jokes. I know what it feels like to want every day to be over so you can go home and sit and blog about your feelings on Tumblr. I know what it feels like to walk the halls alone and wish that you felt wanted even in the slightest. WELL GUESS WHAT; you are wanted. By me. By your parents. Your siblings. Your friends. Your teachers, even. And I am here for anyone who needs someone. IF YOU'RE LOOKING FOR A SIGN, THIS IS IT. Stay strong, everyone. Okay? I value each and every one of you. And I'm one message or text away, got it? Alright.
First, you think the worst is a broken heart, But what will kill you is the second part, And then the third, is when your world splits down the middle. Fourth, is when you think you have fixed yourself, Fifth, you see them out with someone else, And the sixth is when you admit you may have messed up a little.
You have to get hurt. Thats how you learn. The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile, those are the people who have fought the toughest battles. Because they have decided that they are not going to let anything hold them down, they are moving on.
I think the best thing is having confidence in everything you do. I think when you're straight up honest with other people and yourself from the start, life is easier, and much more fun. The stronger and higher you hold your head up, the bigger you smile, the louder you laugh, the more you'll get through it and more opportunities will come your way.
Has it ever occured to you that you could change your life right this second if you really wanted to? You could stand up and yell at your teacher if you wanted to. You could place yourself in a life or death situation if you wanted to. You could even take that risk and just spontaneously and passionately kiss the one you really love by surprise. We could change the outcome of our lives, and if our lives are really as bad as we say they are, then why don't we take those chances?