hey, i'm rachel birthday:03/30/1996 life:go on witty/tumblr, college,
chill at barnes and noble, drink tea,
pilates, watch anime, and write obsessions: internet, fruity flavor
gum, over-sized t-shirts, the hobo life,
super smash bros, dogs, BTS, and Lush dislikes:waking up early, video ads,
socializing, and meat (I'm vegetarian) leave a comment <3
Okay we'll do our best! I want your honest opinion on a weak will and stony facial expressions and eating like a caveman and weird ideas on gender and putting on lots of makeup to make others comfortable and wearing something CUTE and listening to podcasts about adulthood and voting socialist and not having friends and knowing people don't want you there but if you don't show up they'll just talk crap about you and size M being large for Asian women and all this sadness that does a bad job coping with rejection and the surrounding air of paranoia that yields into self-importance and god-like status and the likelihood of boring the person reading this.
I guess I can try to make sense of the paranoia. I want their attention. It bothers me because the signs are always there. People are not here, but I imagine them and it seems like they are close to me and accompany me everywhere I go. I want to be happy without it. But the way things are always aligned, it seems to be working in my favor. I don't know whether to get my hopes up or to feel angry at myself for insisting on this. Why doesn't one of them just confess? Why am I so afraid to end this delusion? Will they reach their goal eventually or am I tied to this for good? Am I already too attached? I know. It's weird. Please go away.
5 pm: woke up with my dog. felt incredibly hungry and wanted to leave my house to get groceries but didn't want to go to a store. probably anxious thoughts come up out of the pressure I put myself in to be this super confident and healthy person which is not the reality of my day-to-day practices. I feel depressed and antagonized whenever I try to be welcoming of positivity. I pretty much expect the worst and accept that reclusive habits decisively work out in the end. 10 pm: went downstairs in the kitchen with the intention of asking my mother to open a can of black beans for me but ate a granola bar instead. still unsure why I didn't boil water to drink tea because that same reason to avoid it is fully ingrained at this very moment cause I usually would be worried to not have drank my tea by now (awake for almost 12 hrs) 12 am: back in the kitchen and made an amateur oat bake topped with almond butter. realizing that I should have added strawberries to it. watched wolf on wall street, got hungry during it so I ate a pear and the rest of the apple pie snaps in a bag (no regrets luckily) 4 am: right now I just finished an episode of Toradora! and drank an entire water bottle. about to do a workout video requiring dumb bells. my post-workout meal should be sweet potato fries, but can I muster enough willpower to battle my craving for candy?
iwuvyou4eva posted a quote
December 14, 2012 10:24pm UTC
he dresses comfy, his hair; disheveled and black like his eyes. being around him, i felt my loose hands clench. my skin blew up with fire and the song of spring traced along the winter air that intensified as our gaze almost embraced.. i sometimes purse my lips and other times, i laugh so loud that i can't hear.his breaths of ease and insecurity. we seem nervous and silent like everyone else. But we are enigmatic and bold and speak through moving eyelids. he is a boy and a little bit more.
iwuvyou4eva posted a quote
September 9, 2011 8:43pm UTC
After hearing from an assembly at school today, I know about the 343 firefighters who lost their lives during 9/11 I'm truly thankful of our country knowing that American soldiers take pride of risking their safety to bring justice to our nation. Don't show hate to wars, show compassion and give prayers to our fighters. Our heroes
>>>> PLEASE READ IF YOU TRULY TRULY LOVE & BELIEVE IN GOD♥ a girl went to a party and she ended up staying longer than she planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn't afraid because it was a small town, and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he were waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. when she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been killed in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story. The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her.. She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her When the policeman asked him, he answered, Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her. Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you're never alone. Did you know that 97% of teenagers will not stand up for God? Re-post this if you truly believe in God PS: God is always there in your heart and loves you no matter what "If you deny me in front of your friends, I shall deny you in front of my Father" STAND UP FOR HIM 51% won't re-post this be the one who's smart whom he protects. re-post.(: nmq.I just trust and believe in god, i love him and his son. jesus christ is my savior♥ I love my lord I am not afraid to say it And I will NEVER deny it
go on dates-spend time together-laugh at eachother-hold hands-be romantic-say compliments- && just keep smiling because forever is a long time and there couldn't be anyone else you'd rather spend it with.