I don't know what you are to me, so this letter isn't a "dear bestfriend" "dear ex" or "dear crush" type of thing. It's more of a "to you" letter, if that makes sense. Well, here's to you. When I first seen you, I was little. In fourth grade. You were so handsome even as a little boy. All my friends thought you were the cutest thing, and I definately agreed. I stayed with my elementary school crush for two years. Fourth and fifth grade. But never did we talk. On the last day of fifth grade, I went up to you with a couple of my friends and asked you to sign my yearbook. You did, with the biggest smile. I obsessed over that moment for a long time. Then, looking through my other friends yearbooks, I noticed something.. Out of ALL the yearbooks you signed, you put a smiley face in mine right near your perfectly scribbled name. I know it doesn't seem like a big deal, but to me, it was. I knew we'd be going to different schools, and that definately hurt knowing I have no more chances to talk to you. No more chances to make you feel the same. Until one day, you messaged me on facebook. Just a simple "hey" but my heart was racing, my hands were sweating, my stomach was churning. I felt invincible, like I was on top of the world and I loved it. We began to talk more and more each day, and we became really close friends. From close friends to best friends. Then you were like a brother to me. So uch that you actually WERE a brother to me. Through all those stages of friendship, my feelings for you changed immensely. I slowly fell in love with you, and when I say slowly, I mean S L O W L Y. Although I had felt something for you, I didn't fall in love with you until last summer. OUR summer. I know there's a quote saying "In that moment, I swear we were infinite" but I'm not just quoting that. I mean it. Over that summer, I felt as if we would never end. Like when you told me forever, it was real. I felt like love was actually real for once. No matter who else I had any feelings for, it was always going to be you that I fell for. You were and still are the one person I could call my one true love and feel okay saying it. Over that summer, we did alot. Some things alot of people wouldn't approve of, but honestly I don't care. Yes, I was only 12 at that time, but the feelings I had and still have for you are crazy and unbelievable. I didn't do those things out of "heat of the moment" or just being a sl*t. I did those things out of feelings and you said the same. But before all those things happened, there was that first kiss.. that amazing first kiss. You didn't make out with me, you didn't even try, we just kissed for our first kiss. It was four in the morning, pouring rain, and we were laying outside in the middle of the street blasting music. With You by Chris Brown came on and you leaned in and whispered "do you want me forever?" and I replied "no, i need you." and you kissed me. I felt like I was in a movie. That one moment in time, everything froze. All that remained was you, me, and the sound of the rain against the ground. That moment was our "forever" moment, and even through all the making out and other things that followed we never failed to have those perfect movie moments. Those little bits of "forever". When the summer ended, I had a fear that we would end too. We didn't for a few months but then we started fighting more and more. Then the biggest fight came.. The fight that put us where we are now, where ever that is. We "made up" about 10 or 15 legit times, but it always seems to end bad. You have a new girlfriend who you tell the same things you told me, and honestly, as long as you're happy so am I. I don't if I could ever get over you, but if I do, I know I'll never forget you. August 15, 2011 baby, forever and always till the end of forever. ♥