for years hes always asked me ''whats wrong?'' and ive always said 'nothing im fine!'' but today when he asked me i couldnt take it i threw his hand off me and screamed ''everything ..EVERYTHING is wrong''
and lately, ive been pouring makeup on my face, just so maybe he would talk to me again, but nothing, he walks past me as if hes never seen me before in his life, ohhh and to top it all off theres this new girl, hes falling for, and its now, more than ever that i want him, that i NEED him. i just realized i love him, but am i too late?
he didn't know i was behind him, but i saw what he did, i saw it with my own eyes, i saw it as he slowly put his arm around her shoulder, it broke my heart. later on he asked if i was mad at him, i didn't reply, i just walked off. if only he knew...i'll just keep him guessing!
i caught him out of the corner of my eye, i read his eyes. he was sad, a little to sad, his eyes were flat and said nothing, ''why?'' he whispered as he walked by me ''why, WHY did you break my heart?'' he screamed, i thought this was a little dramatic, but let him carry on while people stared at him ''i did it for all broken hearted girls out there, just to prove you can make a player quit his game'' i said as i lashed back he smiled, and i could tell he knew i was right and that its what he deserved.
my friend is a bit random, but shes hilarious, shes also drop dead pretty, today she was trying to make me laugh because i was feeling down, she would say the most random things like: ''oh my pink mushrooms! look at him! wearing that glove? who the hell does he think he is? Michael Jackson?'' just then this boy who i know is in love with her walked by, heard what she said and whispered to himself ''thats why i love her'' he still doesn't know i heard him :)
i tapped him on the shoulder, he turned around, smiling (of course) ''you still want that hug?'' i smirked, afraid of what he would say, afraid if he didn't love me anymore but when he smiled, and wrapped his gentle arms around me, a chill came over me, i felt like i was in the north pole, everyone in the lunch room disappeared , it was just him and i, we let go and he looked at me, and said ''i think i just fell in love with you again''
laughing, i ran away from him knowing he wouldn't follow, with my friend by my side, we started walking and i could not help but look back to see if he was there. nothing, i felt a tap on my shoulder i whipped my head around thinking it was my friend, to my surprise it was him, he was smiling and said ''where do you think your going?''
so today during lunch i had to finish a test so i went to my English class, i entered and there were like 3 people .....while i was being quiet and slowly chewing on my food, this one kid started talking to the teacher, i dont remember what they were talking about but i could not help but laugh when the teacher got mad at the student and said ''wow, i really wish i could stick my middle finger up at you right now'' made my day...
i saw you today, and all the memories came rushing back, as i stepped closer, my skin brushed yours, i got a chill down my back knowing its not the same, you smiled that smile, and you had that smell that makes butterflies in my stomach. you put your arm around mine, and smiled. and once again i wish things were back to what they used to be.