black and blue
(chapter four)"We're here," Seth said as he idled outside my house, his engine still running.I stared up at my little white house, my eyes glazing over as I stared at it. It had been weeks since I saw my mom, maybe even more than a month. I closed my eyes, worrying what Dean would do to me when he found me."Are you really okay?" he asked. "I'm sorry about the car thing. I really didn't see you," I watched as he winced, and I shook my head."I've had worse," I said without thinking. I snapped my mouth shut.His eyebrows raised slightly. "Really."I laughed nervously, my eyes flitting around. "Uh, I have to go." I went to open the door and his hand caught my knee. That's when the fear filled me and I flinched away, pressing myself into the door of his car.I cowered into my knees, hating myself for being afraid, but still too terrified to look up and get hit. "Haden," he said in an almost soft voice. I looked up, realizing he was still sitting in his seat, looking at me with worried eyes, both hands in his lap. I swallowed, embarassed, but also relieved he wasn't going to hit me."Sorry," I blurted out. "Bye," I said, rubbing a hand over my face, scolding myself silently.Stupid! Obviously he wasn't going to hit you. Now he thinks you're some paranoid freak.But you are a paranoid freak, aren't you? A voice inside my head said. I swallowed roughly."I was just going to ask when I was going to see you again," he said, his hair falling into his forehead and his nose crinkling adorably.I bit my lip. "I have a boyfriend."He looked away, swallowed, his adam's apple bobbing, and turned back to me a smile now on his face. "Just as friends, I mean."Like Dean would allow that. "I can't," I choked out. I can't do anything. Everything will get me hurt. Nothing is safe.Nothing at all.I left, leaving him in the car. When my mom saw me, tears filled her eyes. "I missed you baby," she said, her voice slightly choked up.We hugged for a long time. I felt safe for once, breathing in my mom's floral perfume.When I was upstairs in my room, my phone started to ring.I scrambled to answer it, knowing it would be Dean. My finger hesitated on the answer button.Maybe I should let it ring. Maybe I should say we're done.Maybe I could tell everyone what Dean did to me when no one was around.But I answered it."Hi," I said, my voice smaller than I thought it'd be."Hi baby," he said, his voice soft. I closed my eyes, hugging my knees to my chest. "I miss you. Please come home.""I am home," I whispered."Please," he pleaded. "I love you. You're all I have, Hades," he said using my nickname. "I'll never let it get that bad again," he whispered and I swore his voice was shaking. "I promise.""Don't do this," I sobbed. "Don't do this to me.""I love you," his voice was choked up. He kept repeating that he loved me.My strength crumbled. "I love you too."And I did. When he was the Dean I knew. The one with green eyes like sea glass. Not dark angry ones that seemed endless. Not the Dean who seemed capable of doing anything without remorse. I hated that Dean."Come home then," he said.So I swallowed down the fear I felt, and said, "Okay. Okay I will."I could hear his smile as he said, "It will be so much better. I'll be better."I could only close my eyes and hope he was telling the truth.STUPID HADEN lol. comment if you want me to notify you when the next chap is up! (: