Pardon my vent apparently in my house screaming in a shrill voice, sobbing uncontrollably, slamming doors, and stomping around the house is a good way to get what you want...... I mean when my sister get angry because I'm using a history book to do my homework and throws a tantrum similar to a three year old who has had her ice cream taken away, I get in trouble, I mean even though she's screaming like a banshee I'm both unjust and unreasonable, how dare I do my homework with a book she told me she didn't need.... who the hell do I think I am? And I totally understand how I was rude to my mother this morning, I said I was busy doing something so just tell me simply and quickly what she wanted to do and I was told to got to hell...... I was extremely rude right? There is no winning when Sarah gets B's its a good job and she gets rewarded but my A- are way to low, how dare I not work harder to have straight A+. O' and didn't you know that I should get perm tattoo o fix my scar and loose twenty pounds, because I am not allowed to be flawed, if that's how you view a scar and curves, I must appear perfect after all that isn't applying to much stress on a teen already breaking under the weight of school stress, I'm trying to maintain a GPA good enough to get a full scholarship to college because I can't afford to go, deal with a enough family flaws to warrant me to have a rebellion so bad that I don't come home for weeks at a time.
Today my step mom went to a cemetery and stopped by and saw an old friend who died of cancer...my two year old sister Maddi asked where he was. My step mom told her up in heaven in the clouds and she said "so he can always see you" she makes me smile
For all the lucky one who took the day off to bring there children to school for the first day or had a flat tire that lost their co workers, for the ones that watched the towers fall helpless with no power, for the families that couldn't do anything for their loved one,for the people who lost their live and for the heros who helped and will never be the same, for America which will never be the same. Justice has been severed doesn't have to be pretty because it's true