Hey everyone! I don't want to bore you so I'll keep it sweet and short unlike me:)
My name is Alli. I'm 14 years old.
I play volleyball and softball.
If you want to know more just ask:)
Sometimes more awkward than you'd think.
I know the people who say "I hate my town, I want to leave". I can't tell you how many times I've said that but my friend and I have already decided that after college we are moving. To anywhere! We actually like were we live, its the people here who bother us. Maybe whats just how I feel about my town but.. I mean even if we only move up or down a state it'll be a change worth making as long as I can finally feel better about myself and no longer be surrounded by people who have bullied me, made fun of me, and people who just woke up one day and decided we werent ever going to talk again even though I helped them through everything.
Me: Sometimes I want to die. Therapist: Are you feeling suicidal? Me: Not actively, but if something bad were to happen to me, I wouldnt necessarily be upset about it either. Therapist: Please explain. Me: I don't think I have the courage to actually go through with committing suicide, but if I were to be walking across the road and a car was coming straight for me I'm not sure I would get out of the way. **Not mine.. found it on tumblr but this is exactly how I feel.. :/
Like ships in the night You keep passing me by We're just wasting time Trying to prove who's right And if it all goes crashing into the sea If it's just you and me trying to find the light Like ships in the night You're passing me by You're passing me by Like ships in the night And I'm at the airport waiting on a second plane Had to pack and you had cramps and I was late Headed to a red carpet they won't know my name Riding in silence all that we wanna say About to board when you call on the phone You say "I'm sorry. I'll be waiting at home" Feels like we're learning this out on our own Trying to find a way down the road we don't know Mat Kearney - Ships in the Night
We relate to each other so well, I've only known him for four months now but I can't imagine my life without him. He makes it so easy to talk about the silly things or the most serious ones like my family. He tells me things and how it makes him feel weak, but in my eyes it just makes him look stronger. He knows how to make me laugh, how to make me cry. I'm surprised I haven't cried in front of him, although I don't want to he's good at making me spill my feelings, which I can't even do my other friends. He makes life easier.. He doesn't judge me for who I was or who I am now.. and I wouldn't dare do that to him either. He knows we're bestfriends. I swear sometimes he can't say it enough but I'm glad he reminds me every so often, not that I could ever forget. When we text and call each other it doesn't feel like we're bothering each other. I don't know what it feels like.. I just know know we care about each other and we're always there for each other.. & when we talk in person, it's so smooth and things just flow out of me.. our friendship sometimes feels like more than a friendship.. our hugs are so strong, when he slaps my a.ss its out of playfulness, our goodbyes are quiet because we don't want to say it. I know this doesn't seem like your fairytale but, its definitely mine... :)
Okay.. So to those of you who are telling me off about the quote I posted about different music. It's just based off of people I know in my school. I'm obviosly not talking about every single one of the wittiers. Okay? So can we please stop making such a big deal about this.
I listen to music most girls my age wouldnt listen to... For example: The Strokes The Black Keys The White Stripes Alex Clare The Postal Service Phoenix Coldplay Florence + The Machine ...while most of you are obsessed with Justin Bieber & One Direction...
The cycle repeated as explosions broke in the sky all that I needed was the one thing I couldn't find And you were there at the turn Waiting to let me know We're building it up To break it back down We're building it up To burn it down We can't wait To burn it to the ground The colors conflicted as the flames climbed into the clouds I wanted to fix this / but couldn't stop from tearing it down And you were caught at the turn caught in the burning glow And I was there at the turn Waiting to let you know You told me yes / You held me high And I believed when you told that lie I played that soldier / You played king And struck me down when I kissed that ring You lost that right / to hold that crown I built you up but you let me down so when you fall / I'll take my turn and fan the flames as your blazes burn
I like you but I don't.. because I know you have another girl wrapped up in your arms and I wish I could be her. I know why you like her too. She has a pefrect smile, gorgeous hair, and a body that anyone would kill for.