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Dignity
Chapter One
I kissed him goodbye although it must have been the longest goodbye kiss ever and turned to leave but he stopped me, “Let me walk you home baby”, I just smiled and shook my head, “It’s fine, trust me, it isn’t far!” He just laughed, took my hand and starting walking with me. I loved this feeling, the feeling that someone cares about you and wants you. I only met up with him for the first time yesterday after talking for about 2 months over Facebook but as soon as I so him I immediately wanted him for myself.
He held my hand all the time and kept pecking my cheek, I loved it so much. “I know a short cut baby, it goes through a gorgeous field filled with daisies and roses; come one, it’ll be dead romantic.” I giggled and nodded my head so he led me away. We walked for about 5 minutes before I started getting confused, we weren’t near a field; we were walking behind some houses. “What happened to this field you were talking about, this isn’t a field,” I challenged but he reassured me, saying we are nearly there. We walked further and further, out from behind the houses, through an old park until we eventually started heading through a forest. I stopped and shook my head, “I’m not going any further, and I’m going back the other way”. He suddenly grabbed me firmly and started whispering all these romantic things in my ear and started kissing me passionately. I kissed back for a while until he slipped his hand down my skirt. I pulled away but he didn’t stop. “You know you want it baby, don’t lie to yourself, if you love me like I love you let me.” I did love him so I let him carry on, but things started to go slightly further as I started to feel him. I stood my ground and said no but he just carried on. It wasn’t nice like he said it would be, it was rough and hurt. One hand was on my waist and the other pushed me firmly against a tree so I couldn’t move. I tried but he was just so strong. I started to scream but he didn’t care, no one could hear me, we were too far into the forest.
A long time passed before he finely stopped. I didn’t know what to say, tears were streaming down my face and I was just too scared. He grabbed my hand and started stroking it, he smiled at me. “Come on baby, you know you loved it, let’s go home now ok?” I didn’t move though and managed to get some words out. “No…get…get...get away from me, I don’t… I don’t love you…I hate you!” He just laughed and said fine. He walked away without a care in the world, he got what he wanted and he didn’t care who he hurt. I just slid to the floor and cried. As I closed my eyes, his evil faced pumped in my mind. I felt used, I felt abandoned, I felt dirty, and I felt like such a slag.
Shaking, I reached into my pocket and took out my phone. I scrolled through the contacts but I couldn’t find anyone I felt I could call, not even my mum. I was so ashamed. I eventually scrolled back up to ‘Jordan’, he was my ex, I know he’s an odd person to call do but I knew I trusted him. After five minutes of staring at his name and number I pressed ring.
“Hello….” He had answered but for some reason I just wished he hadn’t. I didn’t talk for about 20 second but he said hello again so I had to say something before he hung up. “Jordan” I whispered tearfully. “Janie, are you alright? What’s the matter?” I paused before replying, “Come to the woods near Thornton Park…don’t ask why, just please come, I’m near that big tree in the middle with the rope swing”. My breathing echoed back but I heard say ok and he hung up.
I sat there motionless until I saw him; he was looking for me and eventually saw me. He ran fast as he could and stopped when he saw the state I was in. He knew immediately what had happened, it was obvious.
“Oh my gosh Janie” he said hugging me. He picked me up and I just cried on his shoulder. “Come on, you need to go home. Fear overtook my eyes, “No, I can’t go home, well not yet,” I whispered, my throat hurt too much to actually speak. “Ok, we will go to mine” It took us a while but we eventually arrived at his, I had stopped crying by now because just being with him made me happier. His parents weren’t in luckily; I probably wouldn’t have gone in if they were because I was a mess. He sat me on his bed. “Trust me Janie, it’ll all be alright, I’ll ring your mum.” Ten minutes later, I heard a knock on the door and my mum came in. She didn’t know what had happened and I didn’t know how to tell her.
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