This horse, has saved my life. If it weren't for him being with me, I'd be dead. He is the air I breathe, the food I eat, the words I speak, my first and only love. He has captured my heart in so many ways. He became "mine" on March 17, 2012. He is the reason I even get out of bed in the morning and keep trying my hardest everyday. Even when things are terrible and stressful in my life, he always makes me genuinly smile and laugh. Around him, I don't have to wear a mask. He accepts me, for being me. No judgement of anything I say, just open ears to listen. And he can tell. He hugs me back when I hug him, He can tell when I'm having a bad day and need a shoulder to cry on. We understand each other so much.You have shown me how to accept who I am.
and how to cope with things in life I have never been able to do if it weren't for you. I love you will all of my heart, soul, and mind Norfi. You truly are my saving grace. <3
I have to get something off my mind. I think its time everyone knows. I'm in love with a girl. She means the world to me. Shes so cute, amazing, and one of the nicest people I've ever met. I love her with all my heart. I'd give up the world for her to be mine forever. For those who don't support me, I'm sorry you can't accept me for who I am. But this is who I am and I will love who I love.
So today is my 17th birthday. And to be perfectly honest, I'm so glad I'm still here today. Last year, I was planning to kill myself because life was just so terrible last year for me. But, I was strong and stuck it out. And today, I couldn't be happier with where I am in life. You never know where life will take you. So just hold on.
I wish he saw how much I loved him. I wish he knew how much I just want to cuddle with him, hug him, kiss him, make him feel special, go to prom with him, tell him I love him all the time, and so on. I just wish he could see this longing desire I have. And maybe, just maybe my fantisies will become a reality. <3
Guys, I have been thinking about my future with my horse lately. And I'm possibly going to have to give him up. This breaks my entire world saying this. Knowing I'm going to have to give him up for a new horse. My mind is a mess right now. I'd rather die than make this decision. My horse has kept me alive for years and if I have to let him go for a new horse, I don't think I could live with myself.
30 Day Letter Challenge Day 6 Dear reader, Don't let life discourage you. It all may seem like one big trap, but a lot of it can be avoided if you pay attention. When something pulls you down and you feel like you can't make it through, that's one of life's traps. The best thing to do is have faith, hope, and hold on. Know that you're loved. I've been down the sh**it hole so many times I should be dead right now. But I'm not because I knew how to get on with life. It's a real pain in the a**ss don't get me wrong there. You have to truly hit rock bottom before you can pull yourself back up. But just know you're so worth it. You're a beautiful person who needs to live and continue your life. You're strong; just look at how far you've come. There will be times when all you can do is throw your hands up in the air and just let life take it's course. But if you just stay strong and hold on, then you will make it through. I promise. Take it from someone who's been down your road many many times. Don't. Let. Life. Bring. Ya. Down!!
30 Day Letter Challenge Day 5 Dear my dreams, Whatever you have in store for me, please, please, please make it worth it. It feels like I should've given up a long time ago, but something kept telling me to hang on. And I think it was because there's so much in store for me. Weather it be horses or music or both. I can't wait to see my dreams become reality.
30 day Letter Challenge Day 3 Dear parents, What do I say? You guys have made me feel useless to this world. I have gone through he;ll and back because of you guys. Dad, your constant yelling and random outbursts on me really hurt. You make me get so sad. It doesn't feel like you're a dad to me anymore. I feel useless to you. To be honest, you're one of the smaller reasons why I started cutting last year. I can never bring myself to tell you though. Mom, even though you're always on my side, I feel like a burden to you. Like all I do is annoy you. I maybe wrong, but thats what it feels like. You guys don't know a lot about your daughter. You guys are probably better off not knowing those things about me too. Thanks for everything you do for me, and lets just hope we don't go insane.
30 Day Letter Challenge Day 2 Dear crush, Funny thing is, you're my best friend. And, I've fallen for you. I absolutley love when you act all silly with me, make fun of me, make me feel important, and so many other things. There's only one problem. You have a girlfriend and are engaged. It's so hard loving you when I know I can't have you. To get out of love is probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I have no choice though. I know you'll never feel the same about me because you love your girlfriend. Yes, you love me as a friend, but nothing more. I wish you would change that, but I guess I am happy for you. Even if I'm the one hurting so much inside. One day I'll get over it.
30 Day Letter Challenge Day 1 Dear best friend, We've been through so much together. Bad times, good times, times where we thought we'd lose each other, and many other times. I can't thank you enough for being my friend. Without you, I'd probably be dead. I've gone through so much emotionally that I thought I'd never make it through. Even though we fight sometimes over really stupid things, have diisagreements, sometimes hate each other, but at the end of the day, I still love you.
It's hard when the one person you want to talk to, doesn't want anything to do with you. It's hard when you're doing your best, but your best still isn't good enough. It's hard when the person you love loves someone else. It's hard when you have to convince yourself your better off without them anyway. It's hard being someone your totally not. Life is hard </3
7:42 in the mornin' 8 seconds before it all sinks in Put your best face on for the world, Fake another smile and just pretend. But you're just putting off the pain. Nothing's ever really gonna change </3