So I get the whole "My-life-sucks-Ima-cut" thing..
Been there.. Done that.. But then things changed..
I relized, you just have to change the way you look at things..
I was walking with my little brother to the Ice cream shop..
When I saw a little boy, about 8 or so, helping a older lady across the street..
Thats when I relized.. The world is full of hope, love and kindness..
So then, that night, before I went to sleep, I thought about it..
I thought about it.. I thought about everything..
I thought about god, school, grades, my friends, Everything..
I thought about why I hate my life.. I wrote a list.. & I told myself "I have to change"
So the next week I signed up for the musical at my church & Joined more school clubs..
I started making plans with my friends.. & I started staying after school with my teachers for help..
And started taking the late bus (didn't get home till 6) & within a week my time was packed..
I relized I was so unhappy because all I did was stay home in my room and listen to mean music..
My ma yelled at me all the time.. I never wanted to do anything..
I started to find happy music.. I even left some of my "bad" friends..
I even got rid of all my meds.. I flushed them right now the drain.. I was never home anymore & I felt happier..
I came home every night a about 8:30 And did some chores.. Then I went to bed.. I was packed with stuff to do..
My life changed because of that little boy..
& I thank God every night and day;
For letting me see that small act of kindness..<3