Everything had become hard to do. Just going through the day was difficult. Sitting in class, I would just start crying for no reason, only that I was sad.
Classes were over for the day but, I didn’t want to go home. I was getting the feeling. The bad feeling. I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in the stall. I sat on the floor and took the razor out of my pocket. I knew it would help, I just didn’t want anyone to find me. I took a deep breath and let the razor touch my skin. Not yet cutting it but, just getting the feeling of the blade on my skin.
After a moment, I put a little pressure on the razor, letting it just easily slip into my flesh. I let out a loud gasp then a deep sigh. Blood started to pool around the gash. The sweet, metallic smell filled my nose.
I heard footsteps in the hallway. I tensed up.
“Is someone in here? Trinity?” David whispered.
“Please don’t come in here.” and I heard the footsteps come in.
“Open your stall.” I turn the knob. He opens the door slowly and his eyes go straight to my arm. “I know those sounds anywhere.” he heard me. “Trinity, I know it helps now,” he sits down next to me, “and it makes you feel better. It feels, good. But, after a while, you start to not feel it. You cut, but it doesn’t give you the relief. But, just because it doesn’t really help anymore, doesn‘t mean you stop. You keep doing it. But after sometime you need something to work. You get even more depressed and instead of finding something different you just move down your arm, to your wrists.” and he shows me his forearm. Scars all over that I have never noticed before, then on his wrists were two big scars.
I was in shock. I didn’t know what to say to him. “You tried to kill yourself?” I said with a single tear rolling down my cheek.
“Yeah, I did. Trust me Trinity, you don’t need this to feel better.”
“How do you know?! Your not going through what I’m going through.” I said.
“No I’m not. I just don’t want to lose you.” he said with sincerity in his eyes. I didn’t believe his words.
“Why would you lie to me like that? I know you don’t care.” it hurt me to say that, but, I knew it was true.
“Now you’re the one lying.” and he put his hand on my cheek. “And I would never lie like that.” he was staring deep into my eyes. His blue eyes so bright, full of life, a life he tried to take.
“Never leave me.” I whispered.
“Never.” and he slowly brought his lips to meet mine. My hands went to his neck, entwining my fingers in his hair.
It was my first kiss, with the boy who saved my life.
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