ok, so there is this guy i go to school with who i like (Chris). there is also a guy that lives up the block from me, we are the same age, we are friends, he likes me, I like him, we got to different schools and he is kinda shy around girls (Nick) Chris is two years older than me. i really don't know what to do. should i just focus on one of them? Chris is older so we have no classes together but, Nick goes to a different school so we never see each other, but, he lives a few houses away. PLEASE I NEED ADVICE!!!!!!
My therapist isn't helping. She just makes me feel worse about myself. I told my parents that I don't want to go to her anymore. They say she is helping and that I am happier. I told them I'm not, they said the only thing that matters is that other people see it. What, am I not allowed to be happy? </3
Everything had become hard to do. Just going through the day was difficult. Sitting in class, I would just start crying for no reason, only that I was sad. Classes were over for the day but, I didn’t want to go home. I was getting the feeling. The bad feeling. I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in the stall. I sat on the floor and took the razor out of my pocket. I knew it would help, I just didn’t want anyone to find me. I took a deep breath and let the razor touch my skin. Not yet cutting it but, just getting the feeling of the blade on my skin. After a moment, I put a little pressure on the razor, letting it just easily slip into my flesh. I let out a loud gasp then a deep sigh. Blood started to pool around the gash. The sweet, metallic smell filled my nose. I heard footsteps in the hallway. I tensed up. “Is someone in here? Trinity?” David whispered. “Please don’t come in here.” and I heard the footsteps come in. “Open your stall.” I turn the knob. He opens the door slowly and his eyes go straight to my arm. “I know those sounds anywhere.” he heard me. “Trinity, I know it helps now,” he sits down next to me, “and it makes you feel better. It feels, good. But, after a while, you start to not feel it. You cut, but it doesn’t give you the relief. But, just because it doesn’t really help anymore, doesn‘t mean you stop. You keep doing it. But after sometime you need something to work. You get even more depressed and instead of finding something different you just move down your arm, to your wrists.” and he shows me his forearm. Scars all over that I have never noticed before, then on his wrists were two big scars. I was in shock. I didn’t know what to say to him. “You tried to kill yourself?” I said with a single tear rolling down my cheek. “Yeah, I did. Trust me Trinity, you don’t need this to feel better.” “How do you know?! Your not going through what I’m going through.” I said. “No I’m not. I just don’t want to lose you.” he said with sincerity in his eyes. I didn’t believe his words. “Why would you lie to me like that? I know you don’t care.” it hurt me to say that, but, I knew it was true. “Now you’re the one lying.” and he put his hand on my cheek. “And I would never lie like that.” he was staring deep into my eyes. His blue eyes so bright, full of life, a life he tried to take. “Never leave me.” I whispered. “Never.” and he slowly brought his lips to meet mine. My hands went to his neck, entwining my fingers in his hair. It was my first kiss, with the boy who saved my life. Comment and tell me what you think! <3
oh my gosh obsessing. never know where your mind is going. up or down, left or right, to your heart or where ever. right now my mind is with my heart. they keep fighting over that one person. that one special person. they are both set on him, he just needs some convincing.
how do you kill a blue elephant? you shoot it with a blue elephant gun. how do you kill a pink elephant? with a pink elephant gun? no. you choke it till it turns blue then shoot it with a blue elephant gun. got it from brittani louise taylor watch her on youtube.