Music and Art what can I say there the reason why im still living there my LIFE besides my friends
I don`t get along with my family ehh who cares, hate school -but woo i finished haha wow yr12 goes so fast
I play guitar, I paint, draw, make things.
im 18 :).
i get anxious and depressed a lot
i have an amazing boyfriend
i love trees
i really like to hide my emotions/feelings and often go into a all high-like overhappy mood.
im always here for ANYONE who wants or needs to talk.
so its been a while since ive harmed my self, i was doing so well untill the HSC and fighting with my boyfriend so much stress is making my head spin and i dont know what to do i have been so close to picking the blade up and its scaring me i dont want to do it but i do at the same time i know its the wrong thing to do but i dont know how long its going to last i need some one to talk to :S
You think that I'm over it but the truth is I don't see how I could ever forgive u. What u did was wrong i trusted u with every thing every little secret but the first chance u have u tell everything to HER yes her the one who i hate yes u told the person that i would never even think about trusting everything when i asked u if u told any one you lied ahah yeah i already knew and decided to give u another chance to tell me but no. See the fact is i relive that every day in my head i haven't forgotten one bit yes I love u but even so I have been thinking whether that is real .. I have so much trouble trusting u that I have to lie and say I do sometimes I just can't tel l whether I love u or were just friends. The worst part is I can't tell u any of this because u can't handle it. But who ..cares.. ?
You say that you`re concerned for me and if i ever need to talk that you`d always be there i believe you, and finaly build up the curage to tell you everything but when i go to see you, before i can say anything you say that you`d rather i talk to somebody else..................................................... so i go on hating you for making me trust you and to think that theres someone there who cares i get over it.. what happens now? you say that you`re worried for my welfare once again tell me that you`re always there for me.. STOP MESSING WITH MY HEAD I DON`T KNOW WHAT TO BELIEVE NOW!!! ***I really want to be able to trust you ***
The monster in my head Tells me he wants me dead He makes me think so many bad things He makes me want to bleed I can`t help but do what he sais As I pick up the razor And take out the blade I run the blade over my skin And see the blood escape from within Over and over again Until the monster escapes my brain My mind is left at ease This escape is my disease I feel so free and light That's when I know everything is alright until he is unleashed again...
[X] Gotten caught chewing gum  Gotten caught cheating on a test [x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times [x] Didnt do homework over 5 times [x] Turned at least 2 projects in late [X] Missed school just because you felt like it [x] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class Total so far: 6 [x] Got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school [x] Text people during class [x] Passed notes [x] Threw stuff across the room [x] Laughed at the teacher Total so far: 11 [x] Took pictures during school hours [X] Called someone during school hours [x] Listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hours Total so far: 14 [x] Threw something at the teacher [x] Went outside the classroom without permission [x] Broke the dress code  Failed a class [x] Ate food during class Total so far: 18  Been called the worst student  Punished on a school trip because you behaved badly [x] Didnt take your stuff to school [x] Given a teacher the finger when they werent looking Total so far: 19 [X] Faked your parents signature [x] Slept in class [x] Cursed at a teacher behind their back [x] Copied homework [X] Got in trouble with the principal/vice principal/dean total 24
I DON`T KNOW WHY I CARE ANYMORE, WHY SHOULD I ALL YOU DO IS MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SH*T YOU DONT CARE ABOUT ME ITS ALL ABOUT YOU WELL YOU KNOW WHAT.... GET LOST STAY OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW IF ONLY I COULD BUILD UP THE CURAGE TO SAY IT TO YOUR FACE