faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
Yes, I remember talking to you :) it helped a lot. Just knowing that someone is there for you makes a difference. I`m in an okay place now and I guess just felt like I could tell her. Its kinda difficult now, but I think once she realizes that I'm not crazy and comes to terms with it things will be better. :) reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
Yeah those moments are the best.
:) ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!! :O omg he's such a jerk! Why does anyone like him?? Yeah I don't have much to say about my now ex. He was a dork, and athlete, so big and yet very eloquently spoken. I'm in all honors classes and could never be with someone unintelligent. That guy in your school sounds horrible! I’d never want to date him and don’t realize why anyone has a crush on him. Please don’t tell me you’ve crushed on him too :/ reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
One of the best feelings is coming across an old memory that you had forgotten about. I like when that happens. Usually it's by coincidence and I guess it's not that bad. If he wanted to be with my now, he would. But obviously whatever feelings we had for each other wasn't enough for him to combat the harassment. I wasn't enough. It’s okay though; I've moved on. Oh and when we were going out towards the end of our relationship, I started cutting a lot. He'd hug and touch me and stuff and I was so afraid that he'd find out that I almost told him once. Thank god I didn't. He'd think I was crazy. reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
Yeah, it’s amazing having him there for me. I’ll try to think of good memories but I don’t like looking to my past much...I’m trying to move on from it.
That's horrible :( stupid people. I even experienced a similar thing. My boyfriend of 2 years broke up with me because people spread a rumor that I was cheating on him with my best friend and the jealousy and pain was just all too much for him to handle. Screw them
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faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
I do have my one friend. He's trying to help me stop. He came over today and I let him take all of my razors. Every single one of them. I hope I'll be able to do it, but even now I'm experiencing anxiety attacks with them gone. I’ve tried to stop before but fell right back into it. I’ve done The Butterfly Project before, and it usually helps…but once I got really angry and sliced right through the butterfly with my razor just because I wanted to kill it. And I don’t know...people can be very judgmental. reply
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1 decade ago
:( I think I can do this alone. I don't necessarily need any help and don’t want to burden anyone else ...especially those that wouldn’t understand. I couldn’t bear the thought of my family looking at me like I was a freak. They already don't like me. That's lucky that that girl did it too because you know her telling wasn’t from a place of disgust, but rather concern. That's good. You're really nice too. So many people would be quick to judge or not care at all. reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
That’s horrible :( I'm sorry that happened to you. When my friend saw my cuts I told her I fell off a fence (not much better). Is your relationship with your dad strained at all? And what about that one girl that ratted you out? Does she think you're weird or anything? Sorry about all the questions...I'm just trying to decide if I should tell anybody and get some sort of help or keep it to myself. And yeah I'll delete them. reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
Hopefully it will be healed by then..but I can't be sure of that. Have you ever had to deal with somthing like that? Advice? reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
I've tried to stop but its really difficult. I'm afraid of what my mom or anyone else would say if they found out..or what they'd do ie. send me to a mental institution. I have huge gashed on my leg from two nights ago and my friend just say it today. She wouldn't talk to me all night. She just mouthed "Why" and moved on. I was thinking of making a quote about it, but figured no one would really care and it's not necassarily quote worthy reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
I don't really know why I started or why I do it. Part of me thinks its because I want to punish myself; because I deserve it. It helps me feel alive too. That sounds a little strange, but, as someone who has done it too, I think/hope you'll be able to understand. I'm sorry you've had to go through this too <3. If you don't mind me asking, how did you do it? Did you stop on your own? That's amazing! reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
In 2009 i was anorexic. i dropped down to a skeletal weight and everyone noticed. my mom would even bully me into eating and shoved food down my throat. i started eating again, but still hated myself and the way i looked. It almost seems selfish to be as depressed as i am, because I have tons of wonderful friends, a family who loves me, and a home (which is more than a lot of people have). In 2010 I made myself throw up for the first time. Since then i have been bulimic (I didn't do it every day, but a lot). I'm not quite sure when I first starting cutting. But I've gotten so hopelessly addicted. My only friend that knows, Tim, has told me to take small steps to try to eliminate it (he realizes I can’t just stop all together). But I can’t and won’t stop. I don’t even really want to. And I think that after all these years I finally need to get help. I hate myself so much now...more than ever. I'm just so afraid to ask for that help that i know I desperately need. I don't want to tear my family apart again like I did in 2009 reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
thank you. i really mean that. my only friend that knows now looks down upon me and i really needed that bit of hope right about now <3 reply
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1 decade ago
hey macy .could you possibly make me a music player for Taylor Swifts Safe and Sound? I know i dont really know you but if you could do that for me it would be AMAZING <3 i'm jealous of your skill and wish i could figure out how to do it for myslef :( reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
wow I've never known any trents before lol now that name will definitely be associated with your boy :) mines is tim. reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
oh course! And you have to continue to let me know how it goes with this mysterious boy! Btw whats his name? :) reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition
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1 decade ago
i dont have feelings for him as more than a friend but he helped me through the hardest time in my life and has always been there for me and i need him now but he's not there :( and if i told him that he'd be there for me and not happy with his girlfriend and i just want him to be happy with her. theyre amazing people and desirve each other..but i still cant help but be jealous :( reply
faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
Yes, I remember talking to you :) it helped a lot. Just knowing that someone is there for you makes a difference. I`m in an okay place now and I guess just felt like I could tell her. Its kinda difficult now, but I think once she realizes that I'm not crazy and comes to terms with it things will be better. :)
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
GOOD WOW!!! :)
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
Yeah those moments are the best.
:) ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!! :O omg he's such a jerk! Why does anyone like him?? Yeah I don't have much to say about my now ex. He was a dork, and athlete, so big and yet very eloquently spoken. I'm in all honors classes and could never be with someone unintelligent. That guy in your school sounds horrible! I’d never want to date him and don’t realize why anyone has a crush on him. Please don’t tell me you’ve crushed on him too :/
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
One of the best feelings is coming across an old memory that you had forgotten about. I like when that happens. Usually it's by coincidence and I guess it's not that bad. If he wanted to be with my now, he would. But obviously whatever feelings we had for each other wasn't enough for him to combat the harassment. I wasn't enough. It’s okay though; I've moved on. Oh and when we were going out towards the end of our relationship, I started cutting a lot. He'd hug and touch me and stuff and I was so afraid that he'd find out that I almost told him once. Thank god I didn't. He'd think I was crazy.
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
Yeah, it’s amazing having him there for me. I’ll try to think of good memories but I don’t like looking to my past much...I’m trying to move on from it.
That's horrible :( stupid people. I even experienced a similar thing. My boyfriend of 2 years broke up with me because people spread a rumor that I was cheating on him with my best friend and the jealousy and pain was just all too much for him to handle. Screw them
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
I do have my one friend. He's trying to help me stop. He came over today and I let him take all of my razors. Every single one of them. I hope I'll be able to do it, but even now I'm experiencing anxiety attacks with them gone. I’ve tried to stop before but fell right back into it. I’ve done The Butterfly Project before, and it usually helps…but once I got really angry and sliced right through the butterfly with my razor just because I wanted to kill it. And I don’t know...people can be very judgmental.
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
:( I think I can do this alone. I don't necessarily need any help and don’t want to burden anyone else ...especially those that wouldn’t understand. I couldn’t bear the thought of my family looking at me like I was a freak. They already don't like me. That's lucky that that girl did it too because you know her telling wasn’t from a place of disgust, but rather concern. That's good. You're really nice too. So many people would be quick to judge or not care at all.
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
That’s horrible :( I'm sorry that happened to you. When my friend saw my cuts I told her I fell off a fence (not much better). Is your relationship with your dad strained at all? And what about that one girl that ratted you out? Does she think you're weird or anything? Sorry about all the questions...I'm just trying to decide if I should tell anybody and get some sort of help or keep it to myself. And yeah I'll delete them.
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
Hopefully it will be healed by then..but I can't be sure of that. Have you ever had to deal with somthing like that? Advice?
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
I've tried to stop but its really difficult. I'm afraid of what my mom or anyone else would say if they found out..or what they'd do ie. send me to a mental institution. I have huge gashed on my leg from two nights ago and my friend just say it today. She wouldn't talk to me all night. She just mouthed "Why" and moved on. I was thinking of making a quote about it, but figured no one would really care and it's not necassarily quote worthy
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
I don't really know why I started or why I do it. Part of me thinks its because I want to punish myself; because I deserve it. It helps me feel alive too. That sounds a little strange, but, as someone who has done it too, I think/hope you'll be able to understand. I'm sorry you've had to go through this too <3. If you don't mind me asking, how did you do it? Did you stop on your own? That's amazing!
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
In 2009 i was anorexic. i dropped down to a skeletal weight and everyone noticed. my mom would even bully me into eating and shoved food down my throat. i started eating again, but still hated myself and the way i looked. It almost seems selfish to be as depressed as i am, because I have tons of wonderful friends, a family who loves me, and a home (which is more than a lot of people have). In 2010 I made myself throw up for the first time. Since then i have been bulimic (I didn't do it every day, but a lot). I'm not quite sure when I first starting cutting. But I've gotten so hopelessly addicted. My only friend that knows, Tim, has told me to take small steps to try to eliminate it (he realizes I can’t just stop all together). But I can’t and won’t stop. I don’t even really want to. And I think that after all these years I finally need to get help. I hate myself so much now...more than ever. I'm just so afraid to ask for that help that i know I desperately need. I don't want to tear my family apart again like I did in 2009
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
thank you. i really mean that. my only friend that knows now looks down upon me and i really needed that bit of hope right about now <3
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
hey macy .could you possibly make me a music player for Taylor Swifts Safe and Sound? I know i dont really know you but if you could do that for me it would be AMAZING <3 i'm jealous of your skill and wish i could figure out how to do it for myslef :(
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
hey i have a friend that reminds me of you. what is your name?
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
wow I've never known any trents before lol now that name will definitely be associated with your boy :) mines is tim.
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
thank you
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
oh course! And you have to continue to let me know how it goes with this mysterious boy! Btw whats his name? :)
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
i dont have feelings for him as more than a friend but he helped me through the hardest time in my life and has always been there for me and i need him now but he's not there :( and if i told him that he'd be there for me and not happy with his girlfriend and i just want him to be happy with her. theyre amazing people and desirve each other..but i still cant help but be jealous :(
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faith_is_passionate_intuition · 1 decade ago
do you have feelings for him as more than a friend?
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