I am the single most ticklish person alive and blow out the candles in December... the 13th to be exact. Witty is my heart. It truly does give me confidence to write what I feel. It gives me the voice that is hidden behind layers of pretense and fake smiles that I plaster on my face every day. I can write everything I'm feeling inside, and not merely the ameliorated version of what society deems acceptable.
for if you want to have some hope in the male gender :) I was at the library with my two guy friends working on a project. I was tired and cramped up from my period and stared annoyed at wi-fi coach area that I would have to walk to. Somehow knowing that I had my period, they carried all my books over, adjusted the table next to the couch so I'd have room to put my feet up, bought me some food out of the vending machine, and fluffed the couch pillows for me. I weakly started laughing and held my arms out for them to hug me. Instead, they exchanged a look and went over to carry me over to the couch. They give me hope. <3
Format by Shauna1612 Today I realized there are so many old and new scars on my body and that if anyone saw me in a bathing suit I'd be in a lot of trouble. My family and I are going on vacation in 5 weeks...and I will be expected to wear a bathing suit and swim with them for sure :X I need to stop cutting. They can't find out. I know I probably won't get any faves on this and I'm just taking up room on witty, but for every fave I get I will go one week without cutting. Maybe if I can get 5 I can make it to vacation with minimal damage.