well, hello. my name is Sydney. i'm a freshman in college. i'm almost 18 years old. i'm excited for college but i'm also nervous. the longest i've been away from my parents is 6 weeks. school is only 3 hours away, but i'll miss my family. my heart is taken. i retired from gymnastics at the age of 17. leaving is my biggest regret. my favorite animal is a zebra. i have zebra everything. even a pillow pet. i hate water. i crack my joints like it's my job. i love pictures and i wish i had a poloroid camera. i hate my hair. i love disney channel.
rest easy and rest in peace. may angels lead you in. this is long, but please read it. yesterday, a boy, a senior, at our school died. he took his life into his own hands. i didn't really know him. i'm not going to pretend we were best friends. he was in a few of my classes, and i know plenty of people who are hurting so badly right now. i saw him in the hallways with a big smile on his face all the time. he had such a nice smile. i can't imagine him being there every day, because he was never absent, and then just never being there again. i found out through facebook, and my newsfeed was filled with "rest in peace matt" last night. it was devastating. this is taking a huge toll on our school. i wasn't close to him, but it doesn't even seem real. someone needs to tell all of us that this is a huge cruel joke. we have no affiliation with any sort of religion, but this morning, we had a prayer. it was sincere, and peaceful. i'm not looking for favorites, but if you would keep his family and friends in your prayers, that would be amazing. i'm not preaching, but if you are thinking about ending your life, please don't keep it bottled up, talk to someone. anyone. save a life.
there you go making my heart beat again heart beat again heart beat again there you go making me feel like a kid won't you do it and do it one time? there you go pulling me right back in, right back in right back in and I know I'm never letting this go i'm stuck on you.