January 11
Braces are finally off! Ommg, I am soo excited they are finally off, it feels soo weird. Today was a good day. Today I am a happy girl(: ahhaha cheesy. But everything went good today. Oh, and only 11 more days until I'm 16. woooo(:
December 18
It's winter break<33 Finally. Yesterday, I went to disneyland in the rain with Sam and Michelle. It was a pretty good night. I've always wanted to go in the rain. Even though we didn't go on any rides, we had some great talks and I've realized I'm ready for some changes. When I go back to school I'm going to be a new person(: Tonight should be good. Having our annual trip to Fashion Island with my best friend since kindergarten. I miss her sooo much. I never get to see her anymore. So I'm soo excited. Great way to start off the winterbreaak.
December 15
I have my best friend back<3 I missed her soo much. 2 more days. The weeks going by soo slow.
December 14
Today sucked. But that moment he came up to me and talked to me made my day better(: I still don't think I have a chance though. Only 3 more days left. This week has been going by soo slow it seems. And I'm dreading tomorrow. I don't wanna be stuck in a class with the people I don't like for a whole hour.
December 10
There are so many different things I would love to tell so many different people. But, I don't have the courage or strength too. I wish so badly I could. Soon I think it will all come out, I don't know how much longer I can hold all these feelings and thoughts in. Everyday I try to remind myself that, Everything gets better in the end, If it's not better, Then it's not the end. I think about this quote constantly and I'm begining to live my life by it. I truely believe everything does get better, after some time. I'm just tired and worn out of all that is happening in my life right now. I'm over it.
December 09
Today has been the worst day ever. Dreams equal crushed. Raah, I'm just sooo over school. I wish I could just skip sophmore year and just go straight to being a junior. I heard sophmore year is the worst year and I must agree. So far it is. I don't think it could get much worse. Ah, and I really NEED my permit. Like desperately. I needa get outta my house. Pronto. asdfghjkl'terrible day.Terrible week.
December 08
These last few days have been terrible. Some douche bag stole my phone at school and i feel so lost without it. It is so hard to get in touch with people when you don't have your phone. And I think I'm liking this guy that will never like me back. And as I thought I was getting closer to having a chance...things change. I also want things to go back to normal. I miss my best friend so much. Things are just not looking up for me.
November 25
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Wow I haven't been on a while. I went to San Francisco for a little while and it makes me think twice about where I wanna move to when I graduate high school. I'm going to put up some pictures later. It was such a cool city, I wish I got to stay longer. Well, time to go to bed. Pretty excited for Black Friday shopping tomorrow:] Should be fun.
November 18
Ahh, I've been studying all night and I still don't think I know anything. I neeed to get my grades up. I really want to. AGH. Well at least after tomorrow we get a whole week off. I desperately need to get away from all this work and all this drama. Girls are bitches and I am so over this bull shit. You can tell when I'm mad when I cuss cause I never usually. But ugh I can't take it anymore. I really can't. I cannot wait til' I'm 18 and move outta this state. New York I miss you<3 I think it's time for bed.
November 10
So we finally have a 4 day weekend and I'm stuck at home. all my plans failed. Yeeea, this sucks. Hopefully the next few days will be better.
November 09
Only one more day to go, then...4 day weekend! Soo pumped. I need a break from this stupid school. So much drama. I am sooo done. Whatever, this weekend better be pretty darn good. Thank god tomorrow is Wednesday. Wow, never thought I would be saying that.
November 07
I keep having the weirdest dreams.
November 06
My dream last night was insane. It made me realize how much i miss my best friend and made me fall in love with a boy i don't even really know. Hahaha. I really wish I could record my dreams.
"I feel no sympathy,
You lived inside a cave,
You barely get by the rest of us,
You're trying, there's no need to apologize.
I've got no time for feeling sorry."
-Feeling Sorry, Paramore
"Just talk yourself up and tear yourself down.
You've hit your one wall, now find your way around.
Well, what's the problem? You've got a lot of nerve.
I'm not so naive, my sorry eyes can see.
The way you fight shy of almost everything.
Well, if you give up, you'll get what you deserve."
-For a Pessimist, I'm Pretty Optimistic, Paramore
Oh how i love Paramore<3 These lyrics just fit my life perfectly right now.
Hii, the names Cassidy. I'm 15, Sophmore, and Single. I blow out my candles on January 22nd. I'm a twin. Her name is Sam [drpepper] and I honestly don't know what I would do without her. I love music, my taste is kinda weird. I have a mad obsession with painting my nails. It's getting outta hand. ahhaha. I fall in love easily, but once i do and if they like me back. I get annoyed and shut them out./: I've lived my life as a pessimist and I'm trying to become more optimistic. There's not much else to say. Talk to me.
