The 3 years ago today;;; I was surrounded by family. My uncle was visiting, & my grandma. We were celebrating you turning 49 years old. Haha, I kept thinking. woah. my moms so old!!! Two years ago, i was in my basement, with bailey & haley watching the notebook(one of your favorite movies) I got asked out on that night. But you weren't there. Daddy was working, so you went out to the bar to drink. I let you, because well, you were 50! You could do whatever you wanted(: a year ago, No one was home, so i went to my friends house, I missed you a lot. Walking home, that same boy caught up with me. Told me he'd always love me, but couldnt handle a relationship, neither could i. I told him i loved him, and walked away, and never looked back. I went home, and prayed that you would give my some strength. Today, i tried desperately to find someone to hangout with..to get my mind off of your birthday...You'd be 52... but no one cared. Not even my own sister, or father. I'm all alone. But i went outside, looked up at the stars. & i know they're holding you tonight. I love you Mom. Happy Birthday. RIP
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