Hey movies, so I'm on here every once and a while but if you can ready my story called "keeping it in" on quotev.com my user in there is clearlytruthful just like it is in here. Its kinda been like my other way to get my emotions out because everyone thinks its just a story, stuff is fictional and over exageratrd but the main ideas of everything are true so please read it.
know not many of you will got to read this so here's the deal: Tomorrow is national suiside survivor day, in honer of all are amazing friends here on witty and the ones who we see in person I want everyone who reads this to draw a heart on your left wrist, add your mane to the end of the list and spred the word to all of your followers. Clearlytruthful
BLOG So today was ok. X and Talked before first period about how I was" jelly" that he watched the hobbit yeasterdya( nerd probs) after lunch he sat next to my friend at the picnic table but that's ok I guess. Its so hard not to be jealous but I think I'm doing ok cuz its natural. We started talking about hair and my friend was like OMG feel xs hair its so soft. I was like ya I know. X gave me a look like half funny half creeper out and asked me when I had felt it. I responded with saying, remember the homecingin football game. He blushed a little and it said oh ya but it was really cute. Anyway in religion we talked a little before the bell rang. But he came into the room and put his hand half on my face half on my hair, idk. After religion I always wait for one of my friends and walk with her to the next class. She told me that x got really scared about me eating today and that he told her that she was like a sky kinda to make sure that I eat. She said that was before religion so maybe that's why he talked to me but again idk. In bio I walked In to find x sitting on the top of my desk, which is kinda usual now.we talked but he didn't ask me about eating, but I he kept looking over at me like he wanted to say something. As I said today was ok, nothing really big happened but I feel really guilty now because I don't want him to worry about me.
BLOG I haven't blogged because Friday sucked. I cryied for the entirety of the football game. X and I didn't talk at all until bio. He is always the first person there but wasn't there when I walked in. When he did arrive I was slouched in my desk and he came over and later down across the top of my desk so are faces were 6jnches apart. It was really cute and we chatted for a bit. After school he hugged me( I made a hugging schedule cuz I get hugged too much in my opinion) and so he was like gaya now I can hug u on those days.he even tried to hug me again but being me I told him not to abuse it. At the game though we talked once and I asked him where my friend was before he could even say anything then walked away. I basicly walked around for 2 1/2 hours by myself in 35 degree weather. At the end of the game though he came over and hugged me and said goodbye( we never say goodbye to each other at the football games so it was really cute) but none the less Friday sucked. I didn't do anything yeasterday but I made a snapchat, and x ended up adding me as soon as a posted it on Facebook. Today he snapchated me a video of him watching the hobbit cuz we are both lots freaks and we snapchated for 8hours. He ended up sending me a really good selfie of himself in the mirror, it was the best pic I have ever seen of him, damn it was nice. Anyway I have to go now, nighty noght
BLOG So today was pretty good actually. Atpfter lunch my friends and I went outside and sat at the picknic table. Went x came out he joined us and sat across the table from me because that was the only open seat. He asked me about eating, I think he is just going to do that everyday now. After a couple of minutes he asked on of my friends to move so he could sit next to me, she didn't move cuz we were talking but he sat next to her. One of my friends brought up the topic of woman crush Wednesday and he was like" I have a woman crush" the funny thing is people don't look at other people if they are embarrassed or secretly referring to someone there, I do it all the time I just can't look at the pesoni am referencing and he didn't look at me, so I'm hoping, just maybe. Then he and my friend stated fighting about who got to use my ear buds because they had to run a mmile today, x didn't win but it was cute cuz he was like," but we are best friends" but it wasn't in a sappy way and then the two of them fought about who was my best friend I'd was so cute.Then in religion we had to work with partners for questions in the book and x just came up to my desk and asked me were I wanted to sit cuz we move around the room. He didn't ask me he just assumed we were opartne/rs and it made me really happy. In bio we talked a little but we don't really talk as much like just us its more of like a 18 person conversation. After school I went to art club for the first time and x is in it there was no room at the table but he invited me to sit with them anyway. After some upperclassman moved I sat with him and some other of my friends. While I was at dance he texted me about homework which is a daily thing now whether I ask or he asked. I can't wait until Friday cuz its the last football game and we will be hanging out after school :-)
BLOG So today was the best day since homecoming Friday. In engiplish x asked my if I straighted my hair, and I did, but I also got 6 inches cut off. He said it looked good and it made me smile. After English going to math x yanked my backpack like he used to right before he turned into Spanish, I turned around as he walked away grinning at me. At lunch after we ate I was sitting outside with a friend around a table and x came over with some of his friends and joined us. He sat down next to me and we talked. But then he scooted to we were pressed against each other( like shoulder to shoulder) and said, I'm cold let's penguin, so in response I shoved him off the bench. When he sat back down he tried to shove me off too but it didn't work. He was trying so hard I just stood up and he fell over.when we both sat back down he playfully nudged me and I was going to nudge him back but then he said, can we try that again without trying to shove each other off the bench. As a reflex I said no a playful disapproving voice if that makes sense. We talked and he played with the Pokemon key chain on my pencil pouch trying to get it off cuz its looped around the zipper. He gave up because he couldn't figure out how to get it off so I did it for him. He looked at me and said, k wish I was as smart as you, now I have a 69 in algebra, I'm not smart, I just lookmat things from a different perspective. He eventually left and the bell rang and we headed off to fifth period. In religion he didn't even go to his seat before talking to me. He just leaned in the rest next to me and we talked until class started. Leaving religion he said to me, wow your always the first kne out the door, I laughed because he is always right behind me. We didn't really talk in bio but that's OK. Today was amazing. I'll probably text him later. My shirt smells like him now, sighhhh:-)
BLOG Happy Halloween to you all! So I know I haven't blogged in a while cuz nothing really happened. Over the weekend I got to meet jack white from the white stripes at his recording studio, he even signed my book for school. So x and I hadn't talked at lunch for two weeks or so but on Tuesday that changed. We had texted Sunday night and everything was cool. Monday was OK we only talked I'm bio like we had been for the past two weeks. During the day though we had made awkward eye contact a couple of times. On Tuesday we made awkward eye contact like 5 times, and after having another one at lunch he came over and talked. Yesterday he came over again and we talked for the whole time at lunch. in elgish thismoring i had a grammar test and x and i turned in are tests at the same time, like always. towards the end of the class he turned arounf\d and stared at me i was really confused untill i realised that he had never seen me with makeup on.Today he came over again today and omehow my friend and x and i were talking and got to the point of sarcastily "YOU WANNA GO!" shouting. x grabbed my hand and put it on his chest and was shouting at my friend see she has to told me back and this point i hit him in the stoumach with my free hand but was really fun. my friend couldnt stop saying how beautiful i looked today because i actually wore makeup and it was kinda getting annoying but its fun to change things up now and then. was like, " if i was a lesbian i would go for you man!" two more of my friends said this to and i broke out laughing. at the end of lunch x comented on my outgoigness because im usually really quite. in religion we slipt onto little groups to do questions from our books and as soon as our teachwer staopped talking x said my name and i already knew he ment hey i wanna be in a group with you! it only lasted a copuple of minutes but it was fun. in bio we had a lab to do and i was with my friends\ who sits behind me as always. before class though x asked m about my eating nd i had to explane how i dont have food at home that i can bring to school and he was like, then let me buy you food!, but i was like no. you will not buy me food. whn class started there were two stations set up because we had to fill tubes with chemichals and the whole class crowded around them. somehow x managed to get next to me t both of the stations and "needed my heklp" to tie off a plastic tube thingy.after class the tree of us were alking and h asked me if he should be superman tonight( for halloween duh) and in my head i was like" no bbut you could me my man" but i jmust said you dont have a costume yet? he went to chack if he made the bbal team after class and i could tell by the look on his face going back to his locker that he didnt make it. tonight i get to scare the crap out of small children by wearing all black and hiding in the bushes next to my front door, and screeaming at people. afte that im going to watch the walking dead with my sister.my friends said i lived to far away for them to come to my house ut yet its not to far away for me to go to their houses, idk so im gonna be alone tongight but thats ok i guess.
Blog so idint blog yeasterday because not enough really happenedo blog about it. so x and i talked yeasterday and on sunday we had texted for 7 hours. yeasterday was fine and as i said nothing big happened. TODAY we had a testin english and i kept seeing x glance backwards in my general direction.( ya i know i sound like a littl mimddle school girl who is lie" omg he loked at me" BUT IT ISNT LIKE THAT) it wascold and kinda wet today here so m goup of friends ere reloated cuz the seniorstook the spot were we usually sit. ith by back against the brick wall of the cafeteria i read the duff, my faveorite book ever, untill x came over. he stood over me and asked me about my food intake cuz h does and i said it was a thumbs up withch is like a snack for normal people. he looked really suprised atfirst untill he asked me to tell him what i ate. i saaw a glimps of concern flash through his eyes. i tried to explne why i cant eat a lot but i just ended with its complicated. in bio we had a nother test but talked before. x always looks at mebefore talking to me. so i was talking iht my friend who sits behind me and i noticed he was staring so i knew he was going to say someing. ix and i started to talk at the same time, me to my friend, and x to me.he quivkily sopped his word and i pretended like i dint here him beause i didnt lfinch. but i knew what he wa going to ask me anyway. after shool i changed to swet pants cuz its crisp today and i was judged my the cheerleaders but i was wam unlike them who were omplaning abiyt te weaehr. x had drama and i ventually saw him around 5 when he sa down across from mei was talking to this guy in my latin class whilepalying plauge on my tablet. he alwas tries to get e to talk. the three of us talked and shared stories for a while . some of theyboyscomments had to to do with suiside and not having eatn scince 10:30 cuz thats whwen xand i have lunch but quickly corrected themselves knowong how serious u wa about thins like that. then x and our frined we talking aout goignt o watch the vollybal game in the gym. i dint wanna go and they kept thinking i was mad but i wasnt. theydid go to thegame. another freind came overaftera while and we taked. x was talking around and leaned on my head while we all spoke so now my hair smells like him. he went back to the gym and i eventully left. we are teting about homework now cuz bio was suoer hrd tongiht, but i got it done.
BLOG So in Friday x and I find talk at all and it kinda sucked. Yesterday I went to a Latin convention thing and it was stupid. I watched breaking dawn at night and I couldn't help but think of x. While I was txting one og ng my friends she told me that x said he was worried about me not eating at lunch and that it could be the begining of anorexia because I'm already thin. I wish he would talk to me about it but I guess he will eventually. We are kinda texting but I think he is at mass so he hasn't texted me back in a while but are conversation was really boring so if he left I wouldn't be surprised cuz I almost did. I have so much homework but Ive been working on it all day and can't think so I'll be up till like 3 doing it