it's almost been a month, we're still in shock Neil.. i'm not sure how much longer your big brother can handle feeling like this. i know he complained about you a lot & he always got mad at you, but he really loved you. more than you ever thought. he's having a lot of trouble dealing with this all. but he graduated, he made it out of school, he's doing everything he can right now. i wish you were here to show him you love him. please please please watch over him, please let him have whatever makes him happy.. you are very missed sweetie. rip