Beautiful girl, when you are finished falling, after you hit rock bottom and watch yourself come apart into a million pieces, no one is staying to help you collect yourself, no one is sticking around to pick through your pieces to decide which parts of you are worth keeping. That’s for you to decide. So stay down for as long as you need to. This is the most important part. Take your time. Pay attention. You already broke. So the easy part is over. Go slow.... I know, you thought the breaking was the most painful chapter. It wasn’t. Turn the page. The next part is much longer. It’s the healing. The rise. The comeback. It’s the birth of the new you. And it’s not easy. But you are strong and brave and worth it. You’ll have to leave a lot of yourself behind, you’ll have to let go of all the parts of you that you’ve outgrown. We’re not making ourselves small anymore. We’re not bending to fit where we don’t belong anymore. Do you hear me? We’re going all in. Count your wounds, every scar ripped open, every drop of blood you bled like a promise, every tear you cried like a bet in the name of crossing your whole heart, your whole soul, was all for this moment. Right here. Right now. You had to hurt like that to get here to this version of you who knows exactly who she is, who she’s not, who she will never be again. Drop the apologies, babe. We’re not sorry anymore for who we are, we’re not sorry for what we had to do to get here, and we’re not sorry for the time it took to learn our worth. Step out of the box of all you were supposed to be, according to everyone who wasn’t you, and walk into the you, who’s comfortable in her own skin. It’s time. You earned it. We no longer wear the expectations of anyone else and we no longer let anyone else decide what we’re worth. Because we know now. We finally know. And now it’s time to celebrate it. Get up, babe. It does not hurt anymore. Now go show YOU what you’re made of.
Stay still. Let's not make promises, we don't know what will happen tomorrow. Let's not fight either. I think you like how things are now, so I want to protect it. Let's not make promises. Let's not fall deeper. When you share that smile and say those words...I want to believe you. Still, we don't know what will happen tomorrow. In this blissful stage when everything we do can be viewed as endearing. Let's stay here, remain just like this. So that you can accept my clumsy heart. So that you are not disappointed. For my sake, let's just stay like this.
i'm scared of everything i have worked for amounting to nothing. in one cold sweep, a wind could take it all. i keep my head down. gravel beneath my knees keeping my senses on high alert. the fear of it all being for nothing, i bury it for a while. i will meet it at a dead end street. when i turn this back on myself and fall to my knees again. i will face this thought more frequently until it is tame. until the pulse beneath my fingers has settled.
It’s the kind of intimacy that you just can’t fake. It’s the kind of intense, supernatural feeling that only comes around when all a person needs to do is brush a fingertip against your arm, and you feel like you may never breathe again.
The flutters of butterfly wings in the pit of my stomach, the tingle that surfaced under my skin when we touched, the glance from the corner of our eyes that made me smile, and the deep warm whole feeling between my chest. When you left, you didn’t just take you; you took it all...
it’s amazing. Some people, they just say these small little things, one sentence and it changed the way you feel about them in an instant. Small little words that can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever. It changes everything, nothing between you is ever really the same again, even if they dont know it, it still happens...
You give me butterflies Not the bad butterflies, but the ones I love to have because they’re from you. When you smile, I smile. 'my god, just the thought of you makes me smile, it’s one in the morning and I can’t stop thinking of you. I still don’t know if it’s a good thing or a bad thing. But as of right now, it doesn’t even matter to me because thinking about you has brought nothing but smiles across my face. I think you are completely and utterly amazing. iloveseth<3
you can just tell me the truth. you can just tell me if you don't, never have, and never will want me. say it to my face. yes, i will cry. yes, i will be upset. yes, i will be hurt. but you know what? finally getting the truth will never hurt as much as you making me think and feel like i have a chance with you when i don't.
I want you I want your sleepy confused look when you wake up. I want to be the warmth that fills the space in your bed. I want to be the sheets your fingers crave at night; the blanket that wraps around you all night. I want to drink tea with you, share some records we find. I want to talk about everything in the world newspapers. I want to discuss with you, to be stubborn and quick-witted with you. I want to have differences between us. I want your flaws. All of them. I want go into the deepest corners of your mind and never get bored of you. I want to be surprised by the new all the time. I want to look at you like a movie, a living piece of art; always trying to chase what you crave … and capture you.
"i don't really remember what he said, i can just distinctly remember how he could make me feel. at times i felt so special and other times i felt like dirt. sometimes i was the beloved and other times a pebble in his shoe. i could be everything and nothing. he did all that but in the end it did not cancel out. i was just left feeling bitter and empty. wishing he was a better man."
being sensitive isn't bad with you. it's like i'm reprogramming my brain. slowly relearning how to express things that hurt. i don't need to brush them aside or grow a thicker skin. with you it's perfectly fine to feel deeply. fine to feel upset. fine to feel how i feel. i don't need to suppress or mask my words with a joke with you. for that i'm thankful.
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February 23, 2020 1:50pm UTC
▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌ ♡ I've not even phsyically felt your touch, and yet you've touched more parts of my soul than almost anyone. I can't describe the things you make me feel, but you truly own every single part of me, should you wish to take it. I've already jumped in head first, no regrets. I will always be yours, no matter what happens. Even when you tire of me, I will be there. ♡ ▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌▌
soon you'll be able to sleep well again. the sadness will be swept away in one blow. you'll eat proper meals from now on too. everything will fall at your feet. a new sun will embrace you, a new moon will watch over you. soon a spark will light up in your chest and you'll forget all the bad things. as i stroke your cheek and hold you close, i can't help but think how natural this is. of course even at this parting, comforting you is a must.