i've spent most of today reading through old diaries from when i was a little kid.
this is an entry from when i was eight:
"i just really really really hate myself and i wish i wasnt me. i'm not popular, i'm not pretty, i'm ugly ugly ugly. i just want to lie down in the road until a car hits me so no one will ever have to put up with me ever again."
i don't know, i just wanted to share that. i think it sucks that an eight year old kid was made to feel like that.
but that kid is me, that's my life. i've been abused, bullied, had an eating disorder and depression, my dad got a lung transplant and i've been through a lot of stuff, but here i am.