I'm getting real tired of people thinking I'm not worth it. Of people hating me, for no valid reason. Just because I like a singer, or I don't look a certain way. I'm ugly, because I don't look 14, when I'm 13. I bite my nails, so I'm gross. I'm a b**tch because I know how to stick up for myself. I'm a pus** because my nickname is Cat. I'm shy because I don't talk to most people. I'm apparently acting cool when I haven't changed a thing. I just got tired of it all.
But I can’t help it I can't help feeling like it's all an act. I can't help feeling that you don't really like me. I can't help feeling that you're just going to use me. I can't help feeling like you're going to leave me... ...Just like everybody always does.
You say you love me. I just reject it. You say I'm pretty, I just ignore it. You say that you'll never leave me, I don't belive it. You try to protect me, but I just try to get away. You reach for my hand, I pull it away. You try to get me to open up to you, but I just shrink down. But I can’t help it.
No matter how many times someone says they love me, or that I'm beautiful, I won't believe it. Sometimes I wish they'd stop trying. I always know they're lying so I just get tired of it after a while...
So I log into my ask.fm and there's someone (I think I know who it is) telling me that I should just stop trying to be cool, or pretty because it's not working. And then they say that I'm ugly. And that I should "just stop". So I come up with some comebacks and they stopped sending me things... I think they got bored.
Sitting in my living room listening to music when... family member: Can you put headphones on so I can watch tv?" me: I don't know where they are... family member: Then can you turn it off? me: but... I was here first! other family member: CAT! TURN IT OFF SO *insert family member's name* CAN WATCH TV! me: It's because I'm the youngest, isn't it?. -_-
You never said anything, all you did was show it. But you made a mistake. She doesn't trust you anymore. I don't trust you anymore. You're not going to break her heart again. You're not going to break mine anymore than you already did. I can fix this dent, but you're not getting her back. She's my best friend. Appologize as many times as you want, she won't accept it unless I convince her to. I'm not going to convince her to. I'm not going to sit here and let her get hurt again.