It's nearly been a year. I still have it, kepy hidden in my room. I found it easier to try to forget you then talk about you and try to live without you. When i got the message that you were walking away, down my best friends driveway with people whom had the biggest smiles on their faces. That cold, hard, dark empty feeling deep in my heart, it will never be replaced. Just like you could never be replaced. I'm forever feeling that I have let you down and that I could have prevented it from happening or even have given you a better life. you had an amazing life. You also had an amazing personality. I strongly believe that no one could understand just how much you mean to me. I know your not gone. But apart of me feels like it. When I saw you at 12:47pm 17th August, it almost thought like I didn't want to see you. Not because I didn't love you anymore, because the more I see you, the more I become attached, and each time it just gets harder and harder to say good-bye. It's because you were my everything, and then to have something that meant that much to me, just be taken away. Gahh, it's the worst feeling in the world. They say never make something your everything, because once they are gone you'll have nothing. I guess you don't quite understand it, until it happens to you.I didn't think that I could live without you. Turns out i was wrong, I can live without you... But I just don't want to. You're forever played on in my mind. I don't think anyone would want to know how many tears, a certain two girls have cried over you. I hope with all my heart, you'll be mine again. But until then.. I love you. Forever and Always.
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